Friday

Get ready for a complicated story. So I diagnosed myself as a narcissist and a person with social anxiety/socially awkward. I feel depressed and so down because I want to be a normal person with empathy for others and with an ability to love. So this friday I have an appointment in the hospital with a psychiatrist. It’s an intake for TMS/Tdcs (transcranial magnetic stimulation). I have to convince the psychiatrist that I have been depressed for months now and that medication doesn’t work. I am not telling him about the narcissistic part, because then he may not be willing to try the tms/tdcs treatment. The reason I am doing this, is because I hope that the tms/tdcs will make me feel empathy towards others. I know it sounds crazy but I am willing to try everything. I read a story about an autistic man (john elder robison) who had TMS and this treatment made him sense emotions and feel empathy towards others. I am hoping the same for myself. If the treatment doesn’t work I will have to take my own life.