I tried to hang myself in January 2016. Got me a cord, tied it to the beams of my basement, and leaned forward. I kept losing consciousness and waking back up cuz I got a thick neck and deep arteries. I also got really drunk in preparation.
I survived that. Woke up the next day to busted capillaries all over my face. From the top of my forehead to my bottom chin. Oddly i only had a slight mark were I put the cord. Never again! Don’t go out like that. Too painful, and you could survive and wind up paralyzed.
Have you went to that website lostallhope? Or Exit International?
There is no other side my friend. Only life and death. NDEs have been proven to be a totally scientific phenomenon. When your brain starts to die or is starved of oxygen, chemicals get released at a crazy rate. Those same chemicals are responsible for feelings of floating above your body, peacefulness etc. it’s basically natures last acid trip.
Same with dropping acid or schizophrenia….it’s all chemically produced. The supernatural doesn’t exist.
So death is like an eternal sleep..? I do believe we will wake up again and I’m scared to be judged for my rotten behavior and for my suicide. Scared to end up in hell
If you are scared of going to hell, don’t kill yourself then. If you are scared of that you will be judged for your rotten ways in the afterlife, stay alive and don’t kill yourself; and you don’t have to worry about going to hell and being judged.
Suicide is only for people who are not afraid of being judged
@johndoe there is no way I can stay alive. I am narcissistic, socially awkward and dumb. This is the wordst combination ever. I have no other choice than to die
i looked up narcissistic personality disorder and you havent exhibited any of the symptoms from what im observing in all of your discussions. narcissists think highly of themselves and are arrogant and thats def not you. you’re just hell bent on offing yourself and always cutting yourself down which NPD’s dont do. not feelin empathy could be a diff thing its not just associated with narcissists or sociopaths. but u most def have some hardcore depression and insecurity issues. usually socially awkward people are the people who dont surround themselves with other people. get out into society more and the awkwardness will go away.
@ellen87 I can’t think highly of myself because I am too dumb and unsuccesful to do. Believe me I know what I am talking about. I am narcissistic as fuck and want to die so badly. It’s not that I don’t wanna go out. I just stand there and say nothing I never know what to say my mind goes blank. I just want death to occure
@lostallhope0001 you are not a narcissists a trained professional has to diagnose you as one. You cant say you are a narcissists just because you think you are one. your psychiatrist has to diagnose as you as one. but you are purposely not telling your doctor how you feel, so you are never going to know.
just talk to your doctor and he will see if you have the traits of a narcissist.
you are always down on yourself and narcissists dont look down on themselves and not suicidal. so you are most likely not. and dont say you are too dumb, socially awkward, or lack empathy towards others cause those are not the traits of a narcissistic person
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I tried to hang myself in January 2016. Got me a cord, tied it to the beams of my basement, and leaned forward. I kept losing consciousness and waking back up cuz I got a thick neck and deep arteries. I also got really drunk in preparation.
I survived that. Woke up the next day to busted capillaries all over my face. From the top of my forehead to my bottom chin. Oddly i only had a slight mark were I put the cord. Never again! Don’t go out like that. Too painful, and you could survive and wind up paralyzed.
Have you went to that website lostallhope? Or Exit International?
Pff that is so disappointing. Yes I visited the websites but I can’t seem to find a good way out
There is no other side my friend. Only life and death. NDEs have been proven to be a totally scientific phenomenon. When your brain starts to die or is starved of oxygen, chemicals get released at a crazy rate. Those same chemicals are responsible for feelings of floating above your body, peacefulness etc. it’s basically natures last acid trip.
Same with dropping acid or schizophrenia….it’s all chemically produced. The supernatural doesn’t exist.
So death is like an eternal sleep..? I do believe we will wake up again and I’m scared to be judged for my rotten behavior and for my suicide. Scared to end up in hell
If you are scared of going to hell, don’t kill yourself then. If you are scared of that you will be judged for your rotten ways in the afterlife, stay alive and don’t kill yourself; and you don’t have to worry about going to hell and being judged.
Suicide is only for people who are not afraid of being judged
@johndoe there is no way I can stay alive. I am narcissistic, socially awkward and dumb. This is the wordst combination ever. I have no other choice than to die
i looked up narcissistic personality disorder and you havent exhibited any of the symptoms from what im observing in all of your discussions. narcissists think highly of themselves and are arrogant and thats def not you. you’re just hell bent on offing yourself and always cutting yourself down which NPD’s dont do. not feelin empathy could be a diff thing its not just associated with narcissists or sociopaths. but u most def have some hardcore depression and insecurity issues. usually socially awkward people are the people who dont surround themselves with other people. get out into society more and the awkwardness will go away.
@ellen87 I can’t think highly of myself because I am too dumb and unsuccesful to do. Believe me I know what I am talking about. I am narcissistic as fuck and want to die so badly. It’s not that I don’t wanna go out. I just stand there and say nothing I never know what to say my mind goes blank. I just want death to occure
@lostallhope0001 you are not a narcissists a trained professional has to diagnose you as one. You cant say you are a narcissists just because you think you are one. your psychiatrist has to diagnose as you as one. but you are purposely not telling your doctor how you feel, so you are never going to know.
just talk to your doctor and he will see if you have the traits of a narcissist.
you are always down on yourself and narcissists dont look down on themselves and not suicidal. so you are most likely not. and dont say you are too dumb, socially awkward, or lack empathy towards others cause those are not the traits of a narcissistic person
Ever try reading the Peaceful Pill eHandboook? It doesn’t do much to help but it gives peaceful methods.
I need 1 pill to take me down. If only that existed
I’ve tried partial twice, lost consciousness in seconds but the rope snapped. It’s physical painless.