Are there more people who are really scared of the future and know you will be even more miserable so that’s what motivates you more to commit suicide?
Yup. So far, things just seem to have gotten worse. Plus, it’s not like my terrible CV will age well. I’m dead meat career-wise. I have almost no friends. I’m becoming less attractive to women by the day. Everyone that matters to me is growing older. I can’t relate to or keep up with what’s happening these day. What is there to look forward to but more misery?
I’m already miserable enough. Bunch of weird fuckers doing weird shit the last few years and I’m down the my last straw. I know it will only get more pathetic. Wish I could live, but I have no home. The one I’m at is with sketchy characters (pedo and tweakers) I can’t sleep every night. It makes complete sense now why I am raped at least 3 times a month. But I either kill myself or live homeless on side of road. that is my only 2 options. I basically live on side of road already. Walking. Every day. Walked 800 miles in 9 months. After living in my car the last 4 years before that. Now I have DUI and I have to travel/live on foot other than with car. But then I go home to the pedo house where I have constant nightmares of being raped. I can’t even sleep here. I didn’t start having rape dreams until I was forced to move back in with them. Now I have them all the time.
That’s a big part of it for me. Big. So call me a coward, a pessimist. I’m both of those, but when I look around at the course humanity is on, I am afraid. Afraid to grow older, to have to rely on others to take care of me, afraid of becoming a burden.
I ask myself quite a bit “What’s going to IMPROVE?” Not change, but improve. What is there worth sticking around for, besides all the platitudes and greeting card stupidity about “forging a stronger tomorrow”, and all that crap.
I’d rather die at my own hand than rely on others for everything, while watching humanity continue its spiral down the drain, heading towards its own self imposed demise.
Such a stigma attached to suicide. We’re all such weak losers for considering it. Apparently the best option is to stay, live a long life and watch your physical and mental capacities erode, become dependent on others for the basics of life like eating, bathing, dressing. Uhhh, no.
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I hold no expectations for what the future may be. Nothing is ever certain.
Only death is
Yup. So far, things just seem to have gotten worse. Plus, it’s not like my terrible CV will age well. I’m dead meat career-wise. I have almost no friends. I’m becoming less attractive to women by the day. Everyone that matters to me is growing older. I can’t relate to or keep up with what’s happening these day. What is there to look forward to but more misery?
I’m already miserable enough. Bunch of weird fuckers doing weird shit the last few years and I’m down the my last straw. I know it will only get more pathetic. Wish I could live, but I have no home. The one I’m at is with sketchy characters (pedo and tweakers) I can’t sleep every night. It makes complete sense now why I am raped at least 3 times a month. But I either kill myself or live homeless on side of road. that is my only 2 options. I basically live on side of road already. Walking. Every day. Walked 800 miles in 9 months. After living in my car the last 4 years before that. Now I have DUI and I have to travel/live on foot other than with car. But then I go home to the pedo house where I have constant nightmares of being raped. I can’t even sleep here. I didn’t start having rape dreams until I was forced to move back in with them. Now I have them all the time.
I think if I don’t kill myself.. I will just keep getting raped.
That’s a big part of it for me. Big. So call me a coward, a pessimist. I’m both of those, but when I look around at the course humanity is on, I am afraid. Afraid to grow older, to have to rely on others to take care of me, afraid of becoming a burden.
I ask myself quite a bit “What’s going to IMPROVE?” Not change, but improve. What is there worth sticking around for, besides all the platitudes and greeting card stupidity about “forging a stronger tomorrow”, and all that crap.
I’d rather die at my own hand than rely on others for everything, while watching humanity continue its spiral down the drain, heading towards its own self imposed demise.
Such a stigma attached to suicide. We’re all such weak losers for considering it. Apparently the best option is to stay, live a long life and watch your physical and mental capacities erode, become dependent on others for the basics of life like eating, bathing, dressing. Uhhh, no.
The future is just more waiting and suffering in silence, I just want this mOvie to end already