As I look back on my life, I think of all the people I’ve met, all the bonds I’ve made, all the things I’ve done and loved.
I think of how much they gave my life meaning, and how they drove me to push on through life with all of my support surrounding me.
And I think of how every single one of those people and things has faded into dust for me. Wether by my own doing, or by life just getting in the way, they have all died off leaving me alone, unwanted, unloved, and dead.
I wonder if I even cross their minds anymore.
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How old are you? When did it start?
What is your current occupation?
Have you tried suicide before?
thank you so much for the information
I’m 21, a legal assistant, and yes. I have tried suicide twice before. And to be honest, i can’t really remember when these thoughts haven’t been weighing down my mind.
are you male or female?
And you must remember when those feelings started, because you talk about connection lost
Male. And if I have to come up with a general time, I think it would be around the time I was 15. My parents just moved us to a different city, and I lost all of my connections there. I guess I never really recovered from that.
If they don’t they weren’t worth it in the first place.
Don’t lose sleep over it, really.
The majority of people you will meet in your life are really out for themselves, if you have not learned that yet, you most certainly will.
It is VERY rare to find ANYONE genuine anymore…
Which is why I feel blessed now because it very much looks like I have found someone really special…..
Keep your guard up….. really, a lot of people now are just good at using others until their “use” is no longer needed…
I don’t know of any solutions. I just know what your pain feels like 🙁