Alone

I’ve reached the point of being tired of being alone. I’ve been staying out of the house in fear of what I’m capable of when people aren’t watching. Though it hurts I’m just breaking. I’m screaming for help and it’s like no one hears. This so called friend that says I can go to them once I start to open up they just ignore me. I just don’t know who to trust anymore. I just want to be happy. I want to have people I can trust and talk to. I’m just starting to believe that’s not possible.