I can’t handle it anymore waking up in the morning fearing the day. As soon as I leave the house I start to worry about how other people see me and what a disgrace I am to society. At school, I don’t like to talk I keep to myself just enough to not seem weird. I want to talk to people at school and make new friends but I feel like I’m not worth having friends and that no one will like me anyway. When I try to talk to them I feel invisible it feels like they just ignore me like I am nothing. When I go to the bathroom at school I look at the mirror and I see this person with no knowledge of what he wants in life as happiness doesn’t seem like an option. At the end of the day I go home filled with depression and anxiety not knowing how to release it so I hoard and eat as much as I can I don’t know why but it just a way of dealing with my inner suffering. As much as I would like talking about it I just can’t tell anyone why I do this. When my parents came in today to talk about my problems. My stepdad really hurt my feeling he looked me straight in the eyes and kept telling me that I was a thief and this just resurfaced my deep desire to take my life own life. And now I’m sitting here crying not knowing what to do with myself anymore I’m sitting here considering taking the easy way out.
The Boy with no name
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It’s okay to be afraid of what the day will bring you but don’t let that stop you from living your life. Don’t let your fear win. Beat it. You’ve got this! Sometimes I overthink too, but instead I try not to think about it too much. Think about maybe planning your day before you start it?
What did you steal? Food from his pantry?
This may sound really weird but I steal the dishes
Dear god I am you, but without stealing.