hey. I’ve been MIA for awhile, oops, sorry. Everything is fucked. Sorry if you emailed me and I didn’t reply. I’ll try to be on here and talk with you lot as much as possible :,) (the email is ollies2@educbe.ca)
The school year is almost finished, thank god, but I’m dreading going into grade nine. I’ve been clean for quite awhile, but the urges to cut and attempt for my 4th time just become much more strong each day. I’m so done with trusting people and have them turn against me. I trust no one. All of my so call “friends” leave me in my darkest moment, and even if they are there, they act like the next minute it never happened, or that they hate me. I’m sick of being called a slut. A whore, pathetic, ugly, constantly. Not being invited to anything. Ever. Always being the one left out, or forgotten behind. I’ve recently had the realization that I’m NOT a bad person, and I DON’T deserve this. So why???
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youre right, youre NOT a bad person. and you DONT deserve those names. What theyre doing is bullying. When I was around that age, I got bullied too. I kept it inside and didnt tell anyone though. Thibgs built and built, and eventually I snapped and brought a knife to school. Dont be like ne and hold it inside. If youre being bullied, please tell someone if you havent already. *hugs* Im so sorry to hear about all this, and the cutting. youre so young, and this isnt fair. I hope every good thing for you
hi lovvely
Hey lovvely! Just think, school is almost done. I think in grade nine you will meet people deserving of your friendship. I’m proud of you for not cutting in a while! It seems as if your “friends” are jealous of what a sensitive, beautiful person you are.