Same here. Reminds me of the lost friends and loneliness I experience. Seems I’ll never be invited again at Christmas parties and New Year celebrations.
sometimes I want company, sometimes I’d rather be lonely. when you have company there’s so much to wonder about ‘do I look like an idiot here?” “do I look completely out of place?” “am i talking about myself too much again?” “why do you keep staring at me?” Phew. Don’t have to worry about that when I’m alone.
December 22, 2017. My next door neighbor worked up the nerve to do what so many of continually wonder if we can do ourselves. He went to the farthest corner of his house from mine (no neighbors to hear anything on that side) and killed himself with a bullet to the head. I’m glad he’s not suffering anymore. The neighborhood does miss him though.
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I used to dread this time of year as SAD would kick in. Not nearly so hard now. I have been using my SAD lamp since about 1 October.
Same here. Reminds me of the lost friends and loneliness I experience. Seems I’ll never be invited again at Christmas parties and New Year celebrations.
I gravely prefer loneliness to company. Weird sh*ts been happening on the last bundle of holifays though. Shake it off, eh?
sometimes I want company, sometimes I’d rather be lonely. when you have company there’s so much to wonder about ‘do I look like an idiot here?” “do I look completely out of place?” “am i talking about myself too much again?” “why do you keep staring at me?” Phew. Don’t have to worry about that when I’m alone.
December 22, 2017. My next door neighbor worked up the nerve to do what so many of continually wonder if we can do ourselves. He went to the farthest corner of his house from mine (no neighbors to hear anything on that side) and killed himself with a bullet to the head. I’m glad he’s not suffering anymore. The neighborhood does miss him though.