Obligation and guilt, as far as I know. Oh yeah, and I like my therapist. Plus I do something nice for myself every day. No kidding. Still in a shit ton of pain off and on tho.
I really like what a1957 said. I’d say in times I come to this site, clearly am not doing well, but I guess stick around cause eventually working at whatever most recent major struggle has come my way, it does diffuse.. It’s like this sticking around, enduring the current awfulness for a chance at something better for the future self.. Something like cleaning up the whole kitchen at night and preparing lunch, even though really don’t feel like it, and then you wake up in the morning and go, “oh cool, thanks last night’s self”
It is exactly stuff like that. Today the car windows are clean inside and out and they looked really nice like a new car (trust me it isn’t even close to a new car) because “last night’s self” cleaned them. I still hear the sweet calls of pheasants because yesterday’s self went walking down a nature trail where they nest.
Because i don’t want to hurt 2 people (my grandmother and mother), so it’s just an endless battle of filling my life with things to do even if they make no sense to me in the end.
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Obligation and guilt, as far as I know. Oh yeah, and I like my therapist. Plus I do something nice for myself every day. No kidding. Still in a shit ton of pain off and on tho.
I can’t tell you much, l don’t know, l have to research. But l think that l don’t own this body. I am alive, that is all.
Avengers Endgame isn’t out yet.
Gotta say, this gave me a genuine laugh at 6:15 am.
I really like what a1957 said. I’d say in times I come to this site, clearly am not doing well, but I guess stick around cause eventually working at whatever most recent major struggle has come my way, it does diffuse.. It’s like this sticking around, enduring the current awfulness for a chance at something better for the future self.. Something like cleaning up the whole kitchen at night and preparing lunch, even though really don’t feel like it, and then you wake up in the morning and go, “oh cool, thanks last night’s self”
It is exactly stuff like that. Today the car windows are clean inside and out and they looked really nice like a new car (trust me it isn’t even close to a new car) because “last night’s self” cleaned them. I still hear the sweet calls of pheasants because yesterday’s self went walking down a nature trail where they nest.
Sowing seed and the fruit of your labor, you have seen 😉
I dunno, it just happens, okay?
Because life has some incredible experiences to offer. I’m not leaving until I get my share.
I have a short list to do before I die, after that i’m off..
Bucket list?
Yep, kinda, but as I said its really short
Ohhhh okay. Cool cool.
I’m only alive because my mama was a slut and my papa was a sex addict
In my case two utterly selfish people focused on their hormones.
Because i don’t want to hurt 2 people (my grandmother and mother), so it’s just an endless battle of filling my life with things to do even if they make no sense to me in the end.
Because i don’t want to miss a thing! 🙂
I’ve been through really bad times worst than now, things can get better,in the end it doesn’t matter but you only get one shot at this why rush it?