I don’t know if I should go to a hospital and check myself in or not but I stay up all night and sit In my room thinking about life and what I want to do. I get suicidal thoughts evrynight and It hurts because I’m not where I want to be, I don’t have a girlfriend or a freind to help me through this. I’m broke and behind. I have no one, I know no one. I really want to start my online business, get my diploma, drivers license then go on to college. But I can’t do anything without this thoughts torturing me. I turn 18 may 10th and time isn’t going slow. My mom is kind of holding me back from everything, I don’t want to talk about her right now. I don’t know what type of medicine I’m on but I feel completly numb I just don’t feel the actual pain in my stomach or chest. I’m so lost and I need help and I want help.
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Those sound like great goals! I really want to buy a shotgun and commit suicide like that but I don’t think it is possible to get away with here. It is very depressing. I always thought I’d be able to commit that way but it is easy to be followed. Especially if you have been involuntarily sent to a psych hospital you can never purchase firearms legally again from a store…….. so better to check yourself in then for someone else to come up with the brilliant idea and you go in involuntarily under their control. Then even if it’s in a decade or two and you desperately need a way out, you would still be able to purchase firearm as last resort…
Don’t you need a license?
I think the law is you need a license to carry on you in PUBLIC.. I guess it’s called a concealed carry permit. But otherwise they usually let people buy guns for “protection” “hunting” “collectors items” with little interference.. usually,. But otherwise I think it goes that it is legal to purchase/have a firearm. You can transport it legally in the trunk of your car and have it in your house without a carry permit. Yes you can’t have it in car besides in trunk. But it seems strangely that pistol laws are stricter than rifles and shotguns. But some states that are real republican is sure will require a license to purchase…. but I’d expect that wouldn’t be more than a few little classes and 50 little dollars. As far as my state, you just have to be over 18 with no felonies, no record of psychiatric involuntary stay and can’t carry in public without permit..
Oh.. I’ve been needing a gun for 13 years…. I’ve been thinking of going to the store and trying to buy one because who knows, maybe my stays in psychiatric hospital were not strictly recorded and not on any official background. Before when I turned 18, the only reason the first thing I didn’t do was buy a gun is because I didn’t have the money. I found the perfect one that I need is only 175$ at Walmart. But idk, im outwardly obviously a homosexual so if they are homophobic they might be inclined to report me for shits and giggles. Once I bought a little baby pocketknife for 30$ and was arrested because the 19 year old customer service homophobe called me in.
Since 18, before I even had the money to purchase a gun, I have horrifyingly been in the psych hospital 4 times (90) days total.