Im still healing from me and love’s relationship ending…
I loved him a lot and… He just made me happy and safe.
Im healing.. It stings but.. Im pushing it through.
Today was just an off day..
My professor was talking about calories and i asked if we could change the subject because the word ‘calories’ just brings back bad memories of me and my eating disorders.
He asked why the topic bothered me and i just ignored the question.
Once lecture was over, i went up to his desk and told him..
I’ve had an eating disorder since middle school and i would starve myself because im not confident with my body. I would count calories like crazy and if i ever go overboard.. I’ll immediately freak out and try to burn them off. I told him im still healing.. Id do my absolute best to eat, but its still difficult.
He told me to keep pushing myself and if i ever needed help i can always count on him.
Im glad he said that.. But i just wish i told him im back to self harming.
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He sounds like an understanding professor. Prehaps you can talk to him more about your life in the future. I’ve had some great teachers teach me about life in the past, far beyond the basic subject material.
I reconized your name so i went through and read some of your posts. What happened with james? Is he the one you dated and then got broken up with? Sorry if these are really personally questions.. You dont have to answer them.of course.
We parted ways sadly.. We never really were an item but we loved each other that it felt like we were. He needed to stop loving me because he wanted to find someone closer. I respect that completely.. I want him to be happy.