Someone I once knew

3 weeks ago, someone I once knew took his life. I wasn’t close with him but I attended boarding school and he was a junior in my dorm room. I often spoke to him, he was kind and that often got him bullied. Not in a bad way, just the usual senior to junior back and forth. I was tempted to do it too, because I am a very anxious person and I thought I could use him to have the senior experience. I never did, thank God, I tried to be as nice to him as I could. After I graduated, I left my country and came to the USA, I have struggled with depression for years, and last year it almost overcame me. But despite my low points, I try my best to live, despite how tempting suicide is. I live in a whole new world, my anxiety is through the roof and I don’t even know how tomorrow will be. Finding out he killed himself just hurt me, I know I wasn’t part of his life but to think something like that happened to someone I once knew to be kind and outgoing kid. There’s moments I feel like this is it, it’s my last day, but the anxiety I hate so much is what keeps me alive. I can’t imagine what I would do without fear. Maybe I’d be a better person and more outgoing, or… Maybe I’d really just end it all. I hope many more of us make it to tomorrow.