I feel like I’m floating. With the ebb and flow of the water rocking me back and forth. Ears just under the water surface muting all the noise. Afraid to take deep breaths or move too quickly.
At some peace but still feeling this close to being out of control. Like one wrong move will just sink my body under and take the air from my lungs before I can do anything to stop it.
Floating in the middle of my life right now. Ready to turn over and swim or just give up and sink. I haven’t decided yet. No one would care either way.