I tried to killed myself last night. I used the gun I always owned. Im decently proficient in using it and no matter what I tired it did not go off when I put it too my head. I’m agnostic and I don’t know if this was a sign from God to keep living or bad luck. I’m siad goodbye to my love ones and surprisingly when I texted my mom that I loved her, since I’ve never been able to say it too her in person she called me to make sure I was ok. I don’t know if this is a sign or if I’m being paranoid cause there’s never been anyone friend or family there for me when I’ve been goin through hard times. For there to be a sign that someone actually cares is uplifting but I still don’t want to live and feel like I’m nothing.
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Yes, this is a sign from God, both in the gun and your mother. Please, reconsider your choice: please think about all the pain you would cause to your mother, how it would totally destroy her life, she loves you sooo much and losing you would just be the end of her.
Please, try putting it off for 48 hours. Then for 3 more days, then for a week. There are more coping methods; Please, read these articles:
wikihow. com/Cope-with-Suicidal-Thoughts
wikihow. com/Avoid-Committing-Suicide
Why not tell your mother that you attempted suicide? Why not ask her to be with you, if not physically then through a skype/zoom/teams call if possible? I believe she ought to at least know that you attempted it, she loves you.
People who have attempted suicide, have overcome it and now live good lives. I have no doubt you can overcome it too!! I send you all the love in my heart!!
The night I was to end it all for sure was visited by all sorts of coincidences and surprises that ended the effort that night. I am quite proficient with my gun too so yeah, a bit odd yours didn’t work.