I’m new

Hi, I'm new, and I really don't want to kill myself, but one day I was so depressed that I thought about it, and looking for how to kill myself I found this page, I spent several months reading other people's posts. And just a few days ago I decided to register on this site.
I would like to make a friend, I don't know.
 A moment ago I posted something and I would like you to answer, please, the question blew my mind.
i'm not good with the english, i'm argentine.