Why was I born with this body? I fucking hate it. My tits look like deflated balloons. I look so much better clothed. It’s so saddening, knowing that my naked body will disappoint every and anyone who sees it. How could it not? I’m disgusting. I’m sick of trying to comfort myself. I’m sick of wishing I looked like someone else. I wish I could afford plastic surgery. I’d fix my tits, get a nose job, give myself an ass, and suck all the fat from my stomach and arms. If I could change something about myself, I’d change everything. I’d kill to be anyone but me. I’m pathetic. I’m so fucking angry. I’m so fucking sad. Why do I feel like my heart is collapsing in my chest? Why do I want to put a bullet in my head? The saddest part is, I don’t even have the energy to cut myself. I just want everything to stop. Sometimes I try to make myself feel better by flirting with boys. But at the end of the day, I know they’re only interested in me because they haven’t seen me unclothed. They haven’t seen me without makeup. They haven’t seen me.
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I’ve seen some really ugly fucks out there in happy relationships, and would have been perfectly happy with an ugly af woman personally. There really wouldn’t be so many ugly genes in the pool if everyone actually cared that much.
Feeling unattractive can be bleak. I often feel that way too. On the other hand, attractiveness is relative. We tend to fixate on what makes us feel lesser than, rather than what others may like about us. Nobody is physically perfect. If you really like someone, you’ll often overlook their flaws. I can think of a lot of women with relatively undesirable figures who I still found highly desirable, either because of their faces or the way they carried themselves. Sometimes imperfections even make someone more desirable, because they make you more real.
Search for someone a little less superficial, maybe someone you find beautifully flawed, who you think might see beyond your imperfections. And remember that all beauty fades – we all end up equal in the end.
Sorry, that was meant to be a general reply to op (damn touchscreens!)
Oh my god, don’t listen to thuri. thuri’s probably a guy.
you’re imperfect, that’s perfectly okay.
You’re probably right, and probably right not to listen to what I say either because I suck at saying things. But, I also think what I said is true. Idk what op looks like, doesn’t sound bad to me personally, but looks are not that important to everyone. Not to the extreme that op seems to be worrying it is.
yeah theyre right. if people werent so judgmental basically forcing the ‘ugly’ people to hook up because the “pretty” ones are too good for them, then the gene pool would even out and there wouldnt be ugly and pretty.
or you know if people werent dicks in the first place then it wouldnt matter what the gene pool looked like
I used to obsess about my looks esp in my early teens. I can’t even tell you about all the energy and time I wasted on it for years and I realized nobody was as harsh about my looks as I was. A number of girls told me they thought I was cute, but it didn’t really change my self-perception.
That is part of the downside of having a type-A personality, I was always a perfectionist and then gradually I realized there are some things that are beyond my control and I just stopped worrying about it (mostly). Actually I also had bigger issues to deal with, like getting my education.
Unfortunately nobody gets to choose their parents and sometimes even attractive parents can end up having less than attractive children. We’re stuck with what we were given.
We can do things like exercise or plastic surgery as you mentioned but for the most part we can’t do anything about it except to change our own disposition or attitude towards our own appearance.
It also depends on the type of guy you’re after….if you don’t care much about their looks then chances are they’re not the type to care about yours.
If you’re trying to find a GQ man, then that will be more difficult since usually attractive people are looking for someone on their own level. But there are always exceptions to the rule.
Guys usually don’t look too closely and they don’t mind some imperfections. I’d say don’t mention your insecurities to others it could turn people off. Since they might not have noticed your ‘problems’ until you pointed it out.
I’ve been in the same mentality as yourself and had wanted to end my life when I was younger over my looks but I decided if I’m not going to follow through and keep living then I had to stop making myself miserable over things I cannot change. It was really destroying the quality of my life and my self-worth.
Due to my insecurities I let people get away with putting me down until one day I was really angry at myself (and others) for letting that happen (during high school). After that I regained my confidence and didn’t shy away from confrontation, and I put others in their place. Nobody dared to mess around with me after.
Life is hard enough without the additional baggage of feeling unattractive. I think people who are not physically appealing should never reproduce so their kids don’t grow up feeling ugly and inferior to others. But people won’t listen to this sensible advice and it’s up to us to decide to keep living with the imperfections that were forced on us or choose not to.
For me I decided to accept my flaws because I didn’t think it was worth ending my life over, plus it’s not easy to commit suicide, also because it was damaging my self-esteem and enjoyment of live so I made peace with myself in that sense.
Sodas advice is spot on here, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, what one guy will find attractive another will not and so forth and the same with women, i could care less about a womans body physique etc, what attracts me is the face, whether thats true for most men i cant say but for me its the face that attracts. Dont be harsh on yourself here, there is no universal look that attracts everyone, we all have different tastes.
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Thanks, likewise-I also prefer a pretty face and I can be a bit flexible on the body, as long as she exercises and wants to stay fit, since that’s the standard I set myself up for as well.
And you’re right, it is pretty shocking at times what I’ve seen both men and women are willing to date. I knew some attractive guys their gf’s were very average looking. So some people don’t think about looks in the way others we might for instance.
Plus it’s largely based on our genetics, we can eat right, exercise but there is little much else (aside from surgery) that we can do to change ourselves.
This was a good topic and reminded me of my own very painful hardships and hatred I felt for myself and my parents. But it wasn’t just about looks, I was born into a lower-income family, and I realized where I fell on the pecking order, so that’s a hit to one’s ego and sense of self-worth.
Eventually I came to terms with it as mentioned but there were a few times I wanted to end my life for those reasons. But then I realized there was things I really liked about living so that’s when I decided to just keep going and put aside my issues.