Depression is different for black girls. We’re told from a young age that we don’t matter as much as others. I remember my teacher telling me I must be cheating on my work because id continuously score higher than most kids in school. I remember constantly being ranked last on “whos prettiest” lists. Me and other little black girls.
My mental health has been in a constant state of freefall. Doctors thinking i feel less pain than others. People thinking Im so strong…when im weak. Ive BEEN weak. And today, im not sure how ive made it this far. All I know is that it must end soon. This world is a burden. I have 2 little girls and am currently pregnant. I hope the world is much kinder to them than it ever was to me. I love you girls. Remember me fondly.
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Systematic racism is sad, but your girls will be stronger if you show them that they are, that they don’t mean less than anyone else.
I can only imagine how much harder things must be when society is so tilted against you in so many ways, but don’t overlook the opportunities that you can take, to build the next generation better for them too.
I don’t know of that’s at all helpful, but don’t think that you aren’t cared about, you mean something.
You say you’re weak, but aren’t you strong? Strong for making it this far in such a horrible and unfair world, even if you’re tired and want to leave.
I’m sorry you had to go through all that, it sounds awful. No-one should have to go through that. I can’t even begin to imagine what that would be like.
But as Abnormal Thoughts said, your girls would be stronger if you show them they matter.
Im so sorry you have been judged wrong and treated with such hatred in your life. In reality you matter far more than those who said you didn’t. The world would be a better place without such hateful evil people like them. I hate when people say Im strong so I won’t go there. I really hope you carry on and raise your babies because they need you and the world needs more people like you to brighten it up. We suffer more than most in this shltty world because we are kind gentle human beings in a world of hateful evil bigots and psychopaths.