It’s been 2 years, and I still regret it.
I and my bf just started our career.
i know my bf really a good person that i’ve ever met. But someday he got a pressure from his parents, and me as her gf help him to solve his problem of course.
But, I don’t know that the help turned into a pressure to for him, moreover he always says that’s ok.
one day, I found him and he cheated on me with his office mate.
tbh, that’s no the first time he cheated on me and I always have forgiven him.
I was pregnant. that’s a baby of me and my bf. I dunno should be happy or sad. But my happy feeling more than my sad feeling when I knew it.
i told him, but after a deep talk.
he want me to get rids off our baby. I know it’s hard. But my bf words always in my mind “we just started our career and I’m still continuing my post graduate study”
it’s really hard for me, really! I dunno what to do, i dunno what i feel.
and yaaa it’s became my abortion the first and the last for me.
I really confused what i feel before but I know it now.
i feel regret… really regret it.
i lost everything….
i lost my self, i lost my mind, i lost a happiness.
everything I did in life in early 2 years. It’s just a fake smile, fake laugh, a fake love that i showed to everyone and it’s include my bf.
:’)
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Sorry to hear what you’ve been going thru. I could relate to a bit of your story but in different setting. And really wish I could go back and make it all different again. But one choice. Could change your whole future. So from now I hope you decide for yourself from now on. And yours only. Stay strong and courageous
Please, keep the baby. Many are the women who wish they kept it, and have the feeling of something missing.
As for the man, if he’s stable he’s ok, if he’s not then not.
“It’s just a fake smile, fake laugh, a fake love that i showed to everyone and it’s include my bf.”
Please, express yourself, tell the truth. It will eventually come out, it can’t be held in forever, it sickens the Soul. The sooner you reveal everything the better, you won’t regret having been truthful with your loved one.
1. please dump your bf. Obv reasons so I won’t bother.
1. please abort the baby while there is time. This entire site is FULL of people who wish they had never been born. imo it’s hupocritical for any suicidally depressed person to drag another life into this world. It’s not a matter of abortion rights or whatever. It’s a matter of sparing another soul the misery of this disgusting world. I can’t say this anywhere else but maybe people on a suicide site will get what I’m saying. Please don’t continue the cycle of misery.
I think that’s a bit extreme. There are plenty of people who are happy with life and don’t want to die. I dont think it’s fair to assume the child will suffer and be miserable in this world just because some people do.
If they were going to put down a puppy and you had a chance to adopt and save them, would you?
If the child decided life sucks and doesnt want to live, then they can have the choice of suicide. And it’ll be their choice.