my imagination is getting darker and darker by the minute. I don’t look back. Because I’ve already experienced the good and bad. I’m imagining myself being the one being in the person place at the pov. Of these videos that self indulge myself into. Im empty inside. Trying fill them. With whatever my demon’s are sayin. I don’t fight them no more. More like accepting them in the process. I don’t know anymore. I put myself into this. I and me only. I don’t like to play the blame game. When your used to things that don’t kill you. It makes you stronger… The stronger sense of Negativity comes along with it. When I see those who passed. I try an put myself in their place. Like what were they thinking?. They’re last thoughts?. Last moment before they have the courage to pass on. These thoughts dwells on the back of my mind. Along comes the urges to do it. I don’t mind me getting mentally or physically hurt. If it solves any issues/situations with things in life. Because this cycle, these episodes that I created is worth it. As long as I can get through till the end. I could finally rest in peace against this psychological war.. appreciate it if you’ve read this far.
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Emptiness sucks