Then rest. Lean back and suggest to everyone you might withdraw from their petty BS… that’s what I’m doing these days. Death of social and economic life seem preferable to the end of my physical existence.
I felt the same, my parents did a swell job for a party but I had to pretend the whole night to make it worth everyones while. Inside I knew it to be the end, the good part of life was done… and the vapid, meaniingless life of money and obligations awaited to make me lament every joy I had, sentenced to pay back thrice fold before me every momet of life I enjoyed until then. I saw my 21st as an ending of life.
The way things stand for me 11 years on is perhaps a self fulfilling prophecy.
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Then rest. Lean back and suggest to everyone you might withdraw from their petty BS… that’s what I’m doing these days. Death of social and economic life seem preferable to the end of my physical existence.
I felt the same, my parents did a swell job for a party but I had to pretend the whole night to make it worth everyones while. Inside I knew it to be the end, the good part of life was done… and the vapid, meaniingless life of money and obligations awaited to make me lament every joy I had, sentenced to pay back thrice fold before me every momet of life I enjoyed until then. I saw my 21st as an ending of life.
The way things stand for me 11 years on is perhaps a self fulfilling prophecy.