When i was a kid i always looked up to my cousin. she was beautiful and perfect and smart. When she was 18 she time her life. 4 years later we just passed the anniversary of her death and now i’m 18. I feel the same way she felt. I’m just exhausted. I have mock exams after i get back from christmas break but all i can think about is how much i just want to sleep and forget about school.
I liked this boy. I thought that he liked me back but he didn’t and i don’t know why but in my head i keep thinking their is something wrong with me. all my friends told me not to like him before i even started talking to him. but now all i think about is him.
How can i miss 2 people the same exact way? But one is alive and one is dead.
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Sorry that you lost your cousin. Though someone can seem like they have a good life on the outside, sometimes they’re going through personal problems that lead them to that decision.
There are so many things involved in liking someone, their reputation, personality, attitude, etc. It happens to everyone-I’ve liked girls, then changed my mind for some reason, the same has happened to me in reverse.
I know when you get a crush on someone and those emotions kick in, it feels like that’s the only person in the world for you. It’s hard to be objective. And those feelings don’t go away easily sometimes.
However it is better to rely on your intelligence and to be objective. If that person doesn’t have the same feelings for you, it’s time to just move on and find someone else. Once you do then you’ll wonder why you were hung up on the other person.
Also it’s rare (at least in my experience) to find someone that you click with, but when you do it’s a great feeling and totally worth it. Even then there’s no guarantee you’ll be with them ‘forever’ but enjoy it while it lasts.
Lastly life is short. When I was 18 I didn’t feel like I was in any rush, but the decades fly by. What matters is what you do within that time to have a career and find a good partner. Before you know it you’ll be in your 30s and 40s wondering where all that time went.