Sometimes I think I’m getting better because I forget that I want to die.
It’s not that I don’t want to die anymore, I’ve just forgotten that I want to.
But then I remember and I’m back to the start again. Does the urge ever go away? Will it be like this forever?
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probably not, which isn’t to say it will get better, just different. It might get better, that’s within the wide amount of possibilities
just my stupid opinion but I think it will be like this forever. I’ve had short breaks from misery, a month or two here and there, but it always comes back to this. Would love to hear from an ex sp member who has recovered and can convince me otherwise. really would.
It hasn’t changed for me. In my best days, I didn’t mind death. In my worst days I fantasized about suicide. On usual days it’s a neutral option. And I’ve come to understand it isn’t necessarily negative. Being “suicidal” doesn’t mean you’re depressed. Wanting escape in the form of suicide or anything else says you’re depressed.