living alone
what can I do to stay alive?
at this point all I do is survive
for what?
for who?
family?
yeah, well OK they get a pass, they’re pretty cool
then why are you the one actin a fool? are you jaded?
no, not really
abused?
nope
are you financially burdened?
nah… doing OK
then what the fuck is wrong with you?
are you blessed?
relatively… yeah
do you feel privileged?
absolutely
are you loved?
yeah, I am
then where is the problem, asshole?
there’s one answer I don’t have
well you ain’t good for shit then, are you?
totally useless
what do you do all day anyways… take up space?
I’d say that sounds about right
you say the world would be better off without you?
from a purely logical point of view… no doubt
worthless
DAMN! a bit of logical reasoning stimulating on the brain feels good every now & again… I sure do miss that… you got any more!?
sure, kill yourself
mmm… yes! your warm blanket of reason feels like it’s made out of pure bliss… flood my senses, demon!
you got it boss
1 comment
We underestimate our feelings. In fact for me, feelings have been the underlying motivation for many things I’ve done, both good and bad.
Just because you’re “normal” by most standards, doesn’t mean that you have no right to feel worthless or empty.
In some cases it can be due to a chemical imbalance in the mind. Other cases it could be latent experiences that might emerge from the subconscious, perhaps trauma in early life.
Otherwise one can be fine in every way but just feel sad, depressed or unhappy in some way.
We’ve all had those moments as well. There have been times my life has gone well but I still felt down and uninterested in living.
It’s a good idea to explore those feelings, sometimes there’s a deep-seated reason for having them. If you can figure out why it might be possible to fix or change them.