I always wonder Everytime that, maybe I’m not really suitable to this world… I feel like i was just forced to live here…
And everytime i think about it… i always thought of suicide…
I’m 16 years old, doing school… But i don’t attend classes.. it’s just i feel like i don’t belong to this place… i want freedom, peace of mind.. i want to be free, i want to do whatever i want as long as i can do it…
But everytime I’m attempting to suicide, i always think about “what will happen to my parents? will they cry? will they be happy? what about the cost of doing this? Is this worth doing? Will i reincarnate if I really die?” and a lot more questions in my mind…
I’m so tired of this life tbh… i just want a free life, do whatever i want…
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I’m sorry for your pain.
Our contribution, our help to our fellow human beings, no matter how small, is never insignificant. Just like the Ocean is made of drops, and the forest of trees, and the flower field of flowers, each precious and constructive. How constructive one wishes to be: imagine one could improve the world situation by 1%, that’s worth all my strength, even if it were 0.1% or 0.01%.
I’m almost 21 and I think looking back at my life I can relate to your post in a way that I’ve always been obsessed with freedom. And I guess I just wanted to say that you’re not alone. No one chose to be here, no one really fits perfectly to this world. And I don’t know if you will find that line of thought comforting in any way, but in a way there’s a special sense of unity between all humans and all life forms on this earth in that they are all lost and stuck in this world they didn’t choose to exist in.