im not ready to go to college. the future used to seem so far away and now that it’s nearly on top of me, its so much. i want this stress and expectations to end, and the easiest way to do that is by not living anymore. there’s nothing for me especially with the world going to shit. i wish this was a kinder place.
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When I was 16, 17, 18, I didn’t spend any energy at all thinking about my future. Instead, I spent time watching shows and trying to get girlfriends. I felt nearly the same way once I graduated High School. Didn’t know what to do or where to go. You aren’t alone in how you feel.
For your sake, I’ll play the tape forward a little. Not knowing what to do with myself, I didn’t go to college, simply because I couldn’t choose anything. I wasn’t particularly interested in anything. BUT, because I chose nothing, the job I have now pays next to nothing. I cannot build the life I once dreamt of.
If you desire a healthy, happy, prosperous life, then going to college is important! Life requires money, and with only a little bit of it, you’re going to end up with an empty, pointless life. Instead, if you haven’t yet, REALLY start thinking about what path to take. As in, spend time doing this now. If you don’t, you may truly regret it later.
I went down the more difficult path. Please don’t follow.
I know it may seem scary and maybe you need a year or two before you start college, but college can be a fun time, I made a small group of friends at college and we would spend break times together and it was fun. It can feel scary and nobody knows what they want to do with their lives, some people don’t know till they are 30. Take part in self care and do things you enjoy, your still young ?