I saw him again for the first time in 5 years.
he is absolutely beautiful, tall, and very loving.
i miss sleeping in his bed, i miss having his arms wrapped around me, i miss his bright blue eyes staring into my dark brown eyes, i miss his kisses, i miss his big long nose hitting my nose whenever we kiss, the late conversations before bed, our laughs and giggles, i miss his warmth.
i think he knows i’m still in love with him
i hope he knows
i don’t think he feels the same and i’m trying to be okay with that but, i’m really selfish.
i want to be the only person that he loves. i want him to fall in love with me and only me.
though, he hasn’t been the nicest person to me. i’ve spent so many nights crying myself to sleep thinking and reflecting on all the things he has said to me.
so why am i still in love with him?
out of everyone i am with, all i can think about is him.
all i want is him.
i don’t think i’m gonna last long in life to see how our future is going to end.