I hope this doesn’t come off as condescending and I don’t know your story but respect is earned. Respect isn’t something that is given for free. I hate to start my comment off on that foot especially because you probably already know this but I felt it was necessary to state this before offering some insight.
I just wanted to say I’m kinda in a similar situation as you right now so believe me when I say I’m no better than you. I’ve made some terrible decisions in my life over the past 6 years and those decisions resulted in people losing a substantial amount of respect towards me. It all started when I lost my sense of purpose or rather when I realized I had no genuine purpose in living. I’ve got the mind of a nihilist…Ugh…I’m not sure how to say what I’m trying to say. I don’t wanna tell you too much about myself but I feel it is somewhat necessary in order to convince you that “I know what it’s like” —a phrase you’ll often hear people casually say even if they aren’t being honest.
You say you have no purpose….I think this is what’s causing all the other issues you stated. Living a pointless life does often get people considering suicide. This can cause one to feel tired as you’ve stated that you feel. Both me and you know you’re not tired in the way someone is after doing push ups or sprinting. No this is the kind of tiredness you feel when you can sleep over 8 hours a day and still feel tired. This is the kind of tiredness that can make simple everyday tasks feel like a drag. Obviously your health will decline and if this lasts long enough you’ll get really sick and if it gets worse you’ll eventually die from it. The sad thing about this situation is that many times people will start to see you as a burden, especially if you’re an adult. I would know because that’s what I’ve become….a burden. This lack of desire to live is often viewed as “laziness” by many who’ve never experienced this level of meaningless and it pisses me off if that’s how people view you currently. If it were something as simple as laziness you wouldn’t wanna die. The fact that one wants to die means that it can’t possibly be excused as laziness. I actually feel the same way you do. I feel like I am hated by others including those closest to me.
You see…all the things you’re feeling and thinking are connected in some way. It just sucks that the only solution people like you and I often see is suicide. It sucks how it’s so hard to commit suicide. I wish we could be guaranteed a painless way to do it but unfortunately nobody has ever died and came back to life to offer us any advice on that. I wish I could offer you a magical solution to your problem but I can’t. I guess I’m just trying to say that I along with many others are in the same boat as you and I hope this at least gives you some sense of connection even if it’s an anonymous one.
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I hope this doesn’t come off as condescending and I don’t know your story but respect is earned. Respect isn’t something that is given for free. I hate to start my comment off on that foot especially because you probably already know this but I felt it was necessary to state this before offering some insight.
I just wanted to say I’m kinda in a similar situation as you right now so believe me when I say I’m no better than you. I’ve made some terrible decisions in my life over the past 6 years and those decisions resulted in people losing a substantial amount of respect towards me. It all started when I lost my sense of purpose or rather when I realized I had no genuine purpose in living. I’ve got the mind of a nihilist…Ugh…I’m not sure how to say what I’m trying to say. I don’t wanna tell you too much about myself but I feel it is somewhat necessary in order to convince you that “I know what it’s like” —a phrase you’ll often hear people casually say even if they aren’t being honest.
You say you have no purpose….I think this is what’s causing all the other issues you stated. Living a pointless life does often get people considering suicide. This can cause one to feel tired as you’ve stated that you feel. Both me and you know you’re not tired in the way someone is after doing push ups or sprinting. No this is the kind of tiredness you feel when you can sleep over 8 hours a day and still feel tired. This is the kind of tiredness that can make simple everyday tasks feel like a drag. Obviously your health will decline and if this lasts long enough you’ll get really sick and if it gets worse you’ll eventually die from it. The sad thing about this situation is that many times people will start to see you as a burden, especially if you’re an adult. I would know because that’s what I’ve become….a burden. This lack of desire to live is often viewed as “laziness” by many who’ve never experienced this level of meaningless and it pisses me off if that’s how people view you currently. If it were something as simple as laziness you wouldn’t wanna die. The fact that one wants to die means that it can’t possibly be excused as laziness. I actually feel the same way you do. I feel like I am hated by others including those closest to me.
You see…all the things you’re feeling and thinking are connected in some way. It just sucks that the only solution people like you and I often see is suicide. It sucks how it’s so hard to commit suicide. I wish we could be guaranteed a painless way to do it but unfortunately nobody has ever died and came back to life to offer us any advice on that. I wish I could offer you a magical solution to your problem but I can’t. I guess I’m just trying to say that I along with many others are in the same boat as you and I hope this at least gives you some sense of connection even if it’s an anonymous one.