Many days I feel so damn down….

Since my parents both died, even before that my siblings treated me like dirt, stole a condo from me and have done other hateful things towards me. I dont speak to them anymore. I wish i had a good family. im a cool fun gay male and have a bf that sometimes supports me and sometimes not. I just want to die sometimes, too often I think about ways to do this too. By the way i have no friends either. How pitiful….