Edit for Apr 23: If I didn’t put my arm up fast enough, I’d be fucking blind right now. Completely blind in one eye. For the rest of my life. I HATE MATTHEW SO FUCKING MUCH! He thinks that I will forgive him every time. Well, I’ve fucking had it with his absolute bullshit. I’m not putting up with him anymore. I will never let him hold my gun ever again. That was one of the scariest moments of my life. I wanted to beat him until he was unconscious. If my reflexes were not fast enough. Every time I think back, I’m so fucking glad for my body. I could’ve been partially disabled for the rest of my life. I will hold this fucking grudge. I won’t let go of my anger anymore. I will hold you accountable for your own goddamn actions. I won’t tolerate this abuse anymore. All of my life, he just thinks that I’m his to fuck with. I’M NOT! I will fucking fight back now. Try anything with me again and I will scar you for the rest of your shitty ass life. YOU ARE HATED, MATT! RESENTED! Quit fucking messing with me. I’m almost past my breaking point. And let’s just say that I’m not going to be the only one breaking. You’re at your last chance. Fuck this one up and you are a worthless piece of shit. Another scum of the Earth. Another asshole to avoid. You aren’t my brother anymore. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! I’m entirely done with you and you deserve less than what you have. You have a better fucking life than me. All because you are straight. You’re a zoophile, a necrophile, a pedophile, a racist and sexist fuck. You deserve to fucking die for what you have done. It feels like your whole existence is to ruin my goddamn life. I wish you never existed. Piece of shit. (Not targeted at anyone here)
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wow, yes that sounds quite awful, I think you are quite justified in feeling as you do.
Some people just need to be cut out of your life anymore, like cancer, their existence threatens yours so it’s better that they don’t exist to you anymore.
because staying angry long term….. from experience I’d say it isn’t possible, you can let it fester into hatred or resentment, but if you do that other person is getting to live rent free in your head forever. IDK, because I might have too many people like that. With one person, assuming other people in your life are relatively rosy, maybe it works.
because I’m a morbid SOB; what kind of gun (handgun/rifle/automatic/watergun/pelletgun, etc.) ?
You said you’ve been blinded in the eye, how did that come out? Because it could be as long as I’m imagining it you could have damaged some essential part but still have a relatively okay appearing eye…. or you could need a glass eye or an eye patch.
Honestly if it was me I’d have whatever is left removed and have a smooth black glass eye to replace it…. because I’m already a very strange person, that would only be a small addition. OH, and I’d shave that eyebrow and have a new one tattooed on. but that’s me