insults and comments

i can’t do this anymore. i am tired. exhausted. and just done. i can’t listen to one more insult or comment made about all my insecurities. its like its a loophole that im stuck in, a labyrinth with no escape and just insults and comments. if i reply then i am disrespectful, if i don’t then i am not listening. if i get angry then i am ill-mannered and if i don’t then im shameless. i can’t face those people again. the same people that i am forced to see every day and everyday i feel as if i should just not be here for their sake and my own because it is hard to face them without feeling that all those insults and comments hurt me and are now forever engraved in my heart with a dagger and it stings with every heartbeat. but i can’t say anything, because if i do then i am disrespectful.