since yesterday, I feel like I can’t smile. like it’s a sin or something for a person like me to smile. but still, I do because if I don’t I won’t really help. I got scolded, I was told that I am someone who shouldn’t be trusted – as if I did not know that myself – but then too I kept smiling like nothing happened.
but today it was harder than other days because I felt as if there was someone inside me stopping me from smiling, from being normal. it’s like there is someone inside me who just wants to escape my body just like how I want to escape this world.