guess what? im back.
y’know i seriously thought that maybe I won’t have to come back but I prove myself wrong every single fucking time and at this point, I’m not sure if that’s good or bad.
the future that I see right now is a fucking hell and well my present is too so ig I shouldn’t be that surprised but honestly speaking I thought that shit might be different this time. i really fucking did. but I guess I shouldn’t have because now it hurts even fucking more.
the future I see right now is something I wish I don’t actually have to live cuz trust me I don’t think I’ll be able to fucking survive it and how the hell should I cuz it’s just me in there. alone. just like always.
every time I meet someone I think that oh maybe this person is gonna be my person and that they won’t leave and that I’ll finally stop being so alone but then guess what? reality fucking kicks in, and after a few days, I’m back to where I was.
it just plain fucking sucks at this point. I’m fucking sick of this false hope I get every single time.
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I commend you for coming back here. There are a million worse things you could’ve done. While I’m sorry you find yourself in this place, I’m glad that you have enough fight in you still to talk about these things instead of taking more…”damaging” actions.
Please don’t hesitate to speak here more if needed. Hang in there ?
[I put a Heart, not question mark. ] ^^