2am and I’m singing in the shadows
all the lights turned down and my eyes closed
searching for the right words to describe this
but nobody ever listens to the dark
5am I’m waking up and letting go
of all I loved and of all that I’ll never know
I hate my life cause I’m living at an all time low
if breathing’s meant for living, my lungs are in my throat
hide under the covers, crying to myself
so my roommate doesn’t hear my hurting mental health
shove my head into the pillows, life’s a lie no doubt
but f- it if i’ll do it again tomorrow
shove my hands in my pockets, avoid the dying light
my headphones hide the tragedy, forgetting I’m alive
bloodshot eyes and beat up lines give away the lie
but that’s another boy who you won’t see tonight
Cause I’m laughing at my own jokes
and I’m smiling at you
pretending everything is perfect
who’s to say that ain’t the truth
I’m talking with my old friends
I’m not dying inside
it’s all a drama play again
breathing oxygen, not cyanide
(any songwriters out there?)