Just my thoughts

The thing is… in my opinion God/Higher power whatever you want to call him, he will put us through things, sometimes unfathomable things that no human could or should have to endure.  I know I’m being pushed to that point knowing the only option is death by our own hands, of course God knows this, he planned it that way. Thus is my view on this subject.  He planned for my sister to die in her sleep after an od.  He planned to take my whole family before me,  I’m the last to go. I’m under 35 years old.