Quick rant. I hate being a lesbian woman. It feels so isolating. None of my friends are lesbians. I have a gay (male) friend and one of my friends is bisexual but none are lesbians. They talk about men all the time and I feel so out of place because I can’t relate to that. Whenever I say I’m sick of hearing about men all the time they get mad at me. Fair I guess. They can’t help but being attracted to men. But god does it feel so lonely. Even excusing the lesbian thing we don’t have much in common. I’m aware that there are lesbian communities online but so many of them have been infiltrated by “allies” and straight men trying to catfish. I feel disconnected with the online LGBT community anyway. Maybe I’m just jaded. I sometimes wish that I was born a heterosexual male so that I could love women freely. I don’t live in a homophobic country but most people aren’t lesbians. I want lesbian friends in real life. I don’t know where to find them though. I’m wondering if it’s even worth it considering how hard it is to make friends nowadays. Let alone lesbian ones. I fantasize about dropping everyone I know and finding new people that I connect better with. Unrealistic. I know.
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Hey I can totally relate. When you’re already on the fringe, sometimes it pushes you even further away when you try to socialize and get reminded how little you have in common.
I’m basically aroace, so any time a group starts talking about love & relationships I zone out. That seems similar to what you feel when everyone starts talking about guys. You end up sitting there asking yourself why you’re there.
I dunno, it’s like a cruel facet of nature that if you’re not with the main crowd you get pushed further out, whether by them or by your own inability to adapt.
I’m sorry that you can’t find your people. I also get annoyed when women push me onto men and the relationship never goes anywhere. I am asexual and for some reason, because I am a woman, other women think I have to do anything to get a man, even if he cheats on me a lot or some other reason. It doesn’t matter. Sometimes, women don’t even try to be my friend, they just try to shove me onto a guy. People have bullied me for not wanting to have sex. It’s tough finding your own people especially when you’re different. I hope that it gets better for you.