I can’t believe, last time i posted here was in 2022. Things have changed and actually many many things have changed. I went to college by the end of 2022, it wasn’t what i wanted to do, dated a narcissistic, attempted on my first year, stuffed myself with pills thinking i will escape the great depression. Then i didn’t go, i started accepting how my life was going, i took a break from my boyfriend, met new people and started enjoying life. I experienced many great things after that and i was at the happiest years of my life. Then i graduated and the graduation year was the best and greatest year ever. And in September 2025 i started working, as a primary schook teacher. I hate my job, it’s draining and i can’t keep up with it. The school I work at is so far and i have many troubles where going. I feel like I’ve hit the rock bottom again. Im doing nothing i feel like time is running and im stuck at my parents house and i can’t do anything about it. I still don’t get paid and i still can’t live my life. I have no friends and life seems like 2022 again. I feel like im back to the same place and state i was in 2022.
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Hey it sucks that you’re back here, but it’s interesting that you did manage to escape for a spell and find the happiest years of your life. What does that say…? That maybe, at least if your past is any indication, you can break out of this again and find even happier times?
It’ll cycle around as it always does, highs and lows, but the question is: are the highs worth the lows? Don’t ask yourself now but ask the person you were during those happy years. At that moment didn’t it all seem worth it?
Honestly I think that’s the reason I’m still alive, well aside from general cowardice. I had it great for a while, then became suicidal, then had it great (not as good but still great), and now I’m back to suicidal. But there could be another great period ahead.
Maybe you could try retracing your steps. Figure out what was holding you down before (sounds like your bf) and see if something similar is holding you down again (sounds like your job?). Can you get free again, maybe then get back to happy?
Congrats on graduating. I only made it far with an associates, but couldn’t make it to a BA. College was never for me, but I figured I’d give it a shot
It seems you feel like your back where things were bad for you. That it might lead back to those over things u experience
Have u tried therapy? It’s worth a shot if u haven’t tried it. It’s not for everyone, so don’t feel bad if it doesn’t work for u. I tried it and it didn’t do much for me