“Everyone’s entitled to their feelings”.
On the surface, it seems reasonable and something with which anyone can easily agree.
I am feeling deep, sorrow where only yesterday the feelings were positive, love of family, belonging, shared connection.
There is someone in my close family who is jealous of any positive family/friend attention I get—even if the occasion calls for it—such as recognition of an accomplishment or a milestone. Whether they are cognizant of it or not, this person goes out of his/her way to diminish it in some way, or just make me outright angry or sad. A gaslighter, too.
So now I am feeling isolated and displaced.
But am I really entitled to my feelings? Even if the answer is yes, is it wise to place my focus on them?
Entitlement isn’t alway prudent.
Prayer and petition is better than self pity and powerlessness.
Today is very hard, or better stated, it seems to be so hard. Yet there is so, so much for which I am to be thankful. Blessed in so many ways. Yet I want to be done with what? My life or my circumstances?
My head and my hands feel so heavy, my heart, too. And just like that I lose my way. Because of someone’s else’s envy and dislike.
I am so tired. It’s only Tuesday.