I still have urges of death…..just wanting to end my miserable existence. But I continue on.
I caught chlamydia for the 3rd time….awesome right.
I am in a relationship with a guy who, well don’t give a fuck. Lies so much it’s just not even worth caring about anymore.
My mother still thinks I’m worthless. I’m still jobless. BUT I did leave home and have been staying with my older cousin in a one bedroom apt with about 10 other people.
I’m living the life.
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Sorry about the rough time. If you don’t mind me asking what compells you to stay with your bf if you know he doesn’t care?
I ask myself the same question everyday. I guess it’s the comfort. Plus I don’t know how to leave my comfort zone….why I’m in the bullshit i’m in now.
Yeah I know how that feels I always ended up being the nice one in my relationships never could understand why I never just left I’m so scared of being alone. I did find while studying taoism a little that its harder to be alone than it seems, maybe look into it a little? I don’t think anybody is worthless though even doing nothing has its worth. In a static sense water does nothing but when you look deeper its the reason life exists at all. You grab a coffee and say thank you it has its worth. You see a cat (I particularly like cats) and pet it on the head, and it has its worth. And anywhere is better than nowhere. Hope your feeling better climbing up os always harder than falling down