whats wrong with me?…

I have been cutting myself all day and I really can’t stop I have tried but I have already cut myself 187 times today and will probably do it again. I have tried distracting myself. Or using a rubber band or ice cube but nothing is working. The some of the cuts are quite deep and some are just enough to bleed I don’t want to go to the hospital but I really can’t stop and some are bad enough to need stitches. I don’t want to tell my family but they do know that I cut. And I am running out of room for places to cut. I just really can’t stop. And every time I cut I want to cut deeper I try not to but it is hard. Any ideas for what I could do and please don’t just say stop because I really can’t. Thank you.