home alone very dim light listening to a depressingly beautiful song. My chest feels heavy… I want to be home… not the physical place but just be completely consumed in the song, feel the love you guys have shown me… I think I’ll start my suicide notes tonight… I’ll write something for most people that know my in person, prepare some for some of you, and some other people… I love you guys… I want to go home… curled in a dark closed in corner in my heart consumed in this one song for eternity… I know that’s inside me talking. My mind is usually so mixed up but in this moment, I can FEEL again… It feels heavy and sad but beautiful…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zgUe954iqKg
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This place USED to be home/family to me but this site changed A LOT. Well, actually the people changed. More and more people came, the people I knew left. I observed a lot of things that happened around here and a lot of people have such a bad attitude towards others…it’s despicable. So rude and disrespectful. I have 3 people I have in mind already who I look out for- because they hurt my friends so much, I can’t call this place home anymore.
I don’t mean for this to be a self-absorbed rant, but I just wanted to put that out there. Sorry it was irrelevant to your post, but hey, I definately understand every single word of it. I’m here for you whenever you need me.
No I know.. I miss the SP this was only a month ago… But it’s still all I have. At least the people I talk to from here. A lot of them don’t come on much anymore, but I text/email/facebook… I don’t like what’s happening here but this is still all I have to protect… And this will be where I say goodbye when the time comes…
I think about that too (the goodbye) but you’ve commented on my posts before. I really appreciate that because you really helped me. You have facebook? Can I add you? 🙂 We can send messages whenever you need to talk! I’m on literally 24/7
yeah I have facebook! I’ve really helped you? 🙂 No one here has any idea how much those words mean to me… <3
What’s your email so I can add you? 🙂 I really want to talk to you sometime, you have a brilliant mind and a lot of potential- I can tell you that much. And not only do you help me, but many others as well! I saw your comments on various posts- I really mean it when I say you have a brilliant mind 😉
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