Hello , I used to have my life all together but piece by piece my life has started to fall apart I have previously tried to end it, it mostly has been my friends keeping me motivated to stay here but most of them have moved away, I don’t live near my parent at all they moved away as well, Every-time something good happens I lose another important piece of my life, sadly when I was young I tried but I failed, lately I have tried again and again , and failed every-time, Now I cant even find a reason to get out of bed in the morning, … why even try any more ,
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Not sure what you failed at but like the movie says, sometimes we fall to learn to pick ourselves back up. Sounds like you relied on others in the past. If you want sustainable results, create your motivation.
Lastly, good and bad go together. Cannot be one without the other.
I don’t know much about you, but can I guess?
I know I always hid my true feelings away from friends and family, but I wanted one of them to guess and figure it out and be understanding without me having to tell them. So I’m going to try the same for you. Sorry if I’m wrong. I know it hurts when people don’t understand you.
I’m guessing that when you say your friends “moved away” you mean emotionally and not that they actually moved.
I know when I was suicidal I use to have to do all the work to contact my friends and hang out with them. If I didn’t call them and waited for them to respond first then I knew I would be waiting forever.
Sometimes when I was depressed I would spend days to weeks in my room watching TV or being on the internet. Then when I finally did call someone to hang out, they didn’t even notice I was gone.
I’m guessing a similar thing is happening or has happened to you.
I don’t know I could be wrong. I know that when you try and fail that it hurts. I know that it’s especially difficult to try to connect with someone and get understanding. However, if you’re willing to risk it, I would like to understand you. Please post back telling me more about you and your life.
Well I had my life put together I had a plan a car good friends and had a nice job now everything fell one by one i lost my car in an accident, one of my legiments in my knee was destroyed I nearly died of apendicitis and nearly my chance at the career I want , and I still don’t have a great chance at my career, I am like you where I had to contact my friends because if I waited for them it would take forever for them to call me, now with my friends moving a couple of them did actually move but for the rest you were right about , I actually have multiple near death experiences and tired of them it like something is toying with me
@theflunerfelt: You say you don’t have a “great chance” at your career, but sounds like there is a chance. I hope you take that chance.
Friends can be like that, a bit selfish and I’m sure they don’t know how hard it is on you. That you need them. I’m with Nick. I feel the same as you guys do about friends and people in our lives. I don’t know what to say about the near death experiences…how many have you had? (like the car accident?)
@theflunerfelt: Tell me more. It sounds like the loss of a career is hurting you the most. Is this true?
Also, I notice that often we have secondary reasons for doing things that we lie to ourselves about. I joined the military because I was hoping to get shot and killed (too scared to do it myself), but it was clear that other guys there just joined because they thought they would get women (though they would never admit it) and others just joined because they thought then people had to treat them with respect.
I’m guessing your career meant something like that to you. It meant respect, or acceptance, or “look how successful I am, I’m better than you – see?”, or something similar that we usually like to lie to ourselves about. Am I right?
PS: Sorry I didn’t reply earlier I thought this thing would email me about follow up comments. I was wrong. I’ll probably not reply until tomorrow morning this time either.
Well once I fell out of a thirty foot tree and landed on my back, My appendicitis where I was almost died of an infection, got hit by a car while riding my bike, these are only a few examples of random things that happen to me I am going to take my slim chance at my career and I thank you guys for your support
@nick_tan well i was ahead of all my friends with my life because i had it going well before (i didnt rub it in there faces) but now as my life falls apart and they now all get ahead of me and it makes me feel like such a failure that now im falling behind and all there lives seem like they know what there doing and everything and are already on the path to doing o