im pretty bored of the monotany of people and life, feeling numb, i feel really numb. i keep thinking how good it will be when i go to canada in a few years, i have decided im going to start saving up now since it will take me a few years to get the money, iv applied for jobs and i no when i was last working things wernt as bad just because i felt useful so hopefully ill get to work soon and acctually get paid, so canada will become more of a reality, i like the idea of going to another country, getting faaarr away it will be good, hopefully ill get to go bymyself, a friend wants to come, i dont really want her to but i couldnt say no because shes fragile herself, as long as i get a few weeks bymyself to do completly what i want i think it will be fine, i cant wait to get this monotany over and done with and go and do what i acctually want to.
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Y Canada?? Y not the city next to u where no one knows your name so u can start over.
Hanging around suicide sites has become the highlight of my day. Sad but true.
i live in england so i dont no, i dont like it here, i want togo to canada because i like the idea of being around the mountains there and seeing the stars properly, i like the place, and i have a friend there i want to see.
@ducke of marmalade- meto! haha
pretty sad – duke – me too … the other “highlight” is medication time
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@ birthright if you able to think about moving abroad you are probably capable of reinventing yourself and searching for a more fulfilling life closer to home.
not moving just travelling, i just want to go far away,yes i probably am capbable of doing that here but i want to run, faaarr away where my surroundings are beutiful, nomatter where i go ill still be in my own head.
You could go to Cornwall, Loch Lomond, St Davids, there are lots of nice places in the UK you can go. There are probably even better places.
id still like to travel, why cant i just go to canada? lol
birthright, you summed up the problem I am facing when you said “no matter where i go ill still be in my own head”.
I’ve fallen off the rails and until I can get back on again, I don’t think it will make any difference where I am or what I’m doing.
I agree with Duke – all the places he mentions are wonderful. It’s just a shame I would always have to be there with me!
Wouldn’t the Mounties put you off. I’ve been to Vancouver Island. It was nice, but I think i liked everything more then than I do now.
@ob1 yep same, but is still want to try, maby it will make a differnce i dunno 😛
@duke ha i dont think so, i see pictures and im not like wow amazing but maby ill feel like everyone else sees it when im there? i dunno but as i said i have a friend there so it would make the trip worth something.