After going through a rough patch of hard shit already, the second time round does not get any easier, even with experience. I feel like I can’t put up with another load of DIFFERENT bullshit all over again. The first time was hard enough, but this time I just seem to have the floor below me, falling through, just like my ability to cope. i don’t know what to do anymore. The situation’s don’t matter, it’s just the factor of me not being able to have the strength to deal with this hurt and crying and shaking and pain and guilt anymore.
I need help but I don’t have anyone.
Fuck this.