Okay so apparently my first post was inappropriate for some reason, so I’ll just try again.
If anyone needs someone to talk to, feel free to email me no matter what you need help with or what you wanna talk about, my email will be at the end of this post. Even if you feel there is no hope in life for you, there still is, trust me, you don’t have to walk down the rout I and many other people did, I got help and now I’m not suicidal anymore, I’m still depressed from time to time due to chemical imbalance in the brain and I refuse to take anti-depressants due to personal reasons. But weed and therapy helped me a lot.
For anyone that remembers me, you might remember that I had pretty severe OCD and also I was very suicidal. I may have left out after my SP break that my mother pretty much saved me. What happened was, I was going to the bike storage place thing by the basement in the building to commit suicide, I’m not gonna say how, ’cause I don’t want this post to be deleted as well. I was high as fuck on zopiclone, I couldn’t walk straight, time was going by really fucking quickly, I was supposed to get there at 1, ’cause mum got home around 4, well, she got off work at 4, so she’d be home after, but when finally I made it down there, it was 3.40pm or some shit, then i practiced a final time, people had called me a lot but I was too high to realise or notice it, the phone was on vibrate, then i saw mum had called me several times, so I think i gave it a few attempts, not quite sure, it was almost a year ago (surprised i actually made it this far). So mum kept calling and i walked back home, too high to remember anything, too high to talk properly as well.
However, now i hardly have any OCD and i’m not suicidal anymore (not saying I won’t be suicidal in the future, might happen, who knows, but if I do have any suicidal thoughts, I’ll get help ASAP). Like I said before, weed and therapy helped me.
MY EMAIL ADDRESS:
MrSebastiorATgmailDOTcom
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i have a friend coming round today, so please excuse me if it takes a while for me to explain, so please don’t think I’m ignoring you, it’d be pretty pointless posting this if I were to then ignore you.
Ah shit, I didn’t mean to say explain in my comment, I meant to say reply
I have pretty severe ocd…. As well as depression and paranoid schizophrenia. :/ i might email you…
I’m really glad, Mr Sebastior, that you have managed to turn your life around since your suicide attempt. Sounds like you’ve got some good friends in your life, and a caring mum.
Regarding weed, well different strokes for different folks. I don’t like the stuff, even the smell makes me nauseous. My partner smokes it…a lot! It seems to ‘work’ for him. He says it helps with the stress, and sleeping, among other things. However he has a diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia, so I am sometimes concerned that his paranoia may get worse. Also, he can be very forgetful, losing things etc, and I’ve heard weed can exacerbate that.
I guess OCD is a condition that could be eased by cannabis, provided you are not prone to paranoia. Some do say it helps their depression. I’m bipolar, and I instinctively stay away from drugs and alcohol, I’m on three different types of medication already and adding illegal drugs to the mix is not something I’d want to contemplate. The jury’s out as far as I’m concerned…Zx