There was this guy who posted in here recently called Splinter. I would just like to say that I have spoken with this man on the phone for a couple of days and he has moved me beyond all imagination, I just feel compelled to tell you a little about his story because, sadly, he his committing suicide this weekend. I can’t let that happen without printing why he is doing that, it might give people another perspective on why people feel it is their only answer.Â
His wife (who was 7 months pregnant) was murdered, the murderer was never caught, despite there being some lines of investigations that he suspected were not followed up. He involved himself in the investigations much to the annoyance of the police, and for fear of going into all the details which is a very long story; he ended up having to go to court to get an order to obtain the police records. He had to study the law night and day (became and insomniac) and posted blogs about it in the hope that some kind hearted lawyer would assist him once he realised that not only had the police lied to him on countless occasions, but they had lost the file and therefore had nothing further to go on (even though there were 2 suspects).Â
He never got justice for himself or his wife and child. But it did encourage him to help others in the same situation as by now he had studied the law and how police and court investigations go. He set up a online charity and pestered the hell out of lawyers for assistance (he is even now established at the law society and the legal services commission). He ended up working closely with a PI company in most of the cases and then eventually became a PI himself. A lot of the cases they took on were about missing children, they worked alongside another PI company that had involvement with the police. Splinter was disturbed by the sheer volume of missing children cases that went unheard, he couldn’t understand why some cases (a minor few) made the media and  so many more, even more disturbing ones, didn’t.Â
He has worked this way for 8 years now and also has connections with the US in the same line of work. He has been made aware of the largest pedophile ring in the UK and US and has studied how children are taken overseas from these two countries. He has even gone as far as to pose as a pedophile himself (with others) and physically trap and bring in these men to the authorities, only for them to be set free on technicalities by the police, and not even kept an eye on. He constantly has death threats from these men. It has happened over and over again and is a losing battle. He doesn’t know quite why it’s the way it is, he has theories but he prefers to have fact rather than fiction.
However, he nows first hand just how vile this world in which we live is, he says he has given his all to trying to change things and he is becoming ill, both mentally and physically. He knows that he cannot erase the images and the knowledge that he has now form his mind and he has thought long and hard that if he continues to live knowing where he is and what is happenening, that he is accepting this evil as part of the human way of life – he believes that is wrong and it is NOT the human way of life, and so he can only live either fighting this beast (which he has failed to do) or killing himself as a sort of protest that he refuses to live in this world, so closely alongside evil. He feels trapped by the human body he is in which he has used to it’s full extent to do good and which is already breaking down on him. He wants rid of it.
I never met him but I will miss him. He has moved me further than anyone else could possibly have done. He is a wonderful man. He is an inspiration to humankind.
One thing that he said that has stuck with me too and that I would like to put out on here in case anyone feels the same but hasn’t yet thought of (I know I hadn’t), is that he is donating his organs and any other part of his body when he dies. He  feels strongly about organ donation as he has first hand experience of people who are waiting on those organs, and seen as suicide is the dismissal of the human life, the human body (so to speak) then it should really be no biggie to you to donate it to others. Please think about that, you can register online.
Anyway, just wanted to tell his story here, not entirely sure why except that I have been moved so deeply by it. If anyone is interested in reading his post on here, here is it; Â
It might be a little difficult for most to read and it is not everyone’s opinion so sorry if you get offended by the post.
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Oh Jesus this is awful! Weird as well actually coz I think about all this bad stuff all the time, and I cant help but feel shit when im having a laugh or enjoying something in this world, when this shit is going on right under our very noses. The world is evil. we should fight it but we all prefer to only look out for number one ultimately, sad but true
I feel the same
This is horrific!!! We must do something!! He’s such a good man, we can’t allow him to die, he has done so much good work. Please tell him that I would do ANYTHING to assist his cause and I would make sure everyone I am close with does too! Surely if he keeps spreading the word abut this, we can all gang up together and hit the press and media with the facts? This is a clear cut and dried sign that evil rules here and good people die (like Jesus) please lets not let this happen, pleeeeease.
Damn! I would love to talk with this guy. He is such an inspiration. Sad when we loose from this earth such a good soul in such a sad way.
Sounds so gay but his post moved me so much that it kept me alive. Don’t want to appear over sentimental here but it’s quite literally true! I have been thinking about what he said in his post about ‘evil’ constantly since I read it. I was holding out in the hope that maybe he would join us all together somehow to actually do something, but now it appears there IS no hope, he has tried it himself to find dead ends. I fucking hate this world.
I’m so outta here after reading that. This is a perfect example of there being no point whatsoever in living. Everyone talks of finding their purpose in life, well this guy splinter found his purpose and it has killed him! So I assume it is actually best to find our purposes in knitting, or singing then? cause any REAL purpose gets killed in this hell hole!
You’re damned if you do and you’re damned if you don’t. If you have no ‘purpose’ in your life then you feel unhappy and suffer. If you find a real worthy purpose that can really help others, then you suffer. So I guess the only logical answer to this dilema is to keep somewhere in-between, not really making a difference and helping the world, just something that helps a little bit and makes you feel good. That’s the only answer then? Well chose death then because I find more dignity in that!
Splinter is so right when he says that you cannot live in this world without fighting to the death against evil, unless you are a part of that evil. It’s really hard to hear but it’s true! I figure that if he remains to live here he is allowing this evil to go on, because he knows it’s going on, right now, as he’s eating, as he’s bathing and society has rendered him powerless to stand against it. He is very noble to chose death instead of that. I’m fucking following him!
Hey Pink, Im sure this may be hard to hear but how sure are you of this guys identity? Someone who claims to have gone “undercover” as a peadophile…all sorts of alarms are ringing. Especially on here where people are extremely vulnerable anyway. Grooming online, particularly in this kind of site is a common and easy target for that kind of predator. Physical proof of what he has told you for example…newspaper articles with his pic…surely a high profile case like that, he would have been in the media, without a doubt….Just a thought….
G1974: He could be a predator of what? Grooming who for what? He only emailed me because I begged him too and the same with the phone call, he didn’t want to, I pestered him. He doesn’t want anything from me, he doesn’t want to meet me, or anyone else despite their offers to.
Whilst I can understand that caution must be taken in some cases, can’t you just use your common sense in some?
Whilst yes, once talking about it, he did show me evidence of things but not to ‘prove’ anything, just to show me how things have transpired for him. Oh and it is rather naive to think that all murders make the headline news, what kind of world do you live in? My brothers friend was killed 2 years ago, pretty horrifically and that didn’t make the TV. Splinter has over 12,000 supporters of his wife’s death online, many of those knew her etc.
I am not attacking your response but I think you could have used your common sense in this case a little better before saying these things. I really hope he doesn’t come on this site and and see this before he dies, only to have yet another vile memory printed on his brain.
By the way G1974 I am not some vulnerable child, I am a grown woman.
G1794 – A predator of what exactly? I’m sorry but I agree that being careful is important but I just don’t see in the post that splinter made where you get that notion? He didn’t put his email out there (plenty do on here!) and he didn’t even respond to people asking to know him! He just said what he had to say and f@cked off! You’re way out of line saying that shit in this particular case. Jesus man, that really sucks. Dummy!
Hey G1974, I do agree with the point you are making that vulnerable people need to be careful, but I also have to agree that I fail to see where you get that from in Splinters case? I practically begged to meet him and I sent him my contact details and he never contacted me. I’m sure someone would use a very different method to the one he used to ‘groom’ vulnerable people, rather than post such a harsh post which he knew was anything BUT nice! It was the opposite! And I think it only really reaches half clever people too, stupid people will only be insulted by that post, certainly not seduced by it!
I don’t think that in this case you have proved yourself to be half way clever.
Yeah, there’s always gonna be some jerk that lowers the tone. It’s called life.
Hey guys, thanks Pink for posting this, I saw Splinters post a few days ago and was affected by it also, certainly made me think let me tell ya! What he says is hard to hear but I guess it is something that I have kinda thought about deep inside for a long time. I did wonder about what his story was and after reading this I guess it makes sense. Poor guy. I was gonna post something to him on that last post but I figured he hadn’t read the last few add ons because he hasn’t responded to em (even the offer of marriage!) 🙂
This guy G1975 or whatever his name is is way off the mark on this one, a bit embarrassing to read that to tell you the truth, I was cringing! Maybe he’s jealous?? I dont know but there is nothing in splinters post to even slightly suggest any grooming or predator behaviour.
Pink, I emailed you too (I’m not grooming you I promise) but I would like to talk to you about something,and also I would be interested to learn more about splinter, stuff like this is an interest of mine. My dad has a friend that used to work for the FBI overseas and he really opened my eyes to so many things, the media is definitely controlled over what gets aired and it makes no sense at all. It’s got to the point (like in our man G19740), that we only believe what the media tell us, like it’s our friend! haha! And I saw that you posted your email address on an old post where you talked about that media thing and I took a note of it. Hope you don’t mind?
Thanks Pink! I am so sad 🙁 I asked splinter to talk with me but he didn’t respond, I would have loved to be in touch with him, but I understand. Such a sad story, I feel really moved by it. My mum was telling me about one of here childhood friends (they got back in touch on facebook), her daughter went missing from the school yard!! She has never been found and other than it being in the local paper, it never made any headlines! And something weird went on with the police cause the school has cctv of the school yard but the police said they found nothing on it, the parents asked to see it themselves and they refused to show it to them. Maybe splinter could have helped them obtain a court order to get that evidence – apparently, the police have to give you the file if you request it but more often than not that doesn’t happen. The world is a mess ad yes people do only believe what comes through the media they are so stupid to believe that! That stupid mentality of ‘well if it wasnt on TV then it didn’t happen’.
Shame.
If you do speak to him again please send him my love xx
Hello everyone. I have visited this site for the past 7 months, I haven’t posted anything yet but this one has given me the urge to.
The way this post has gone, I see similarities to one I was viewing last night about ‘please think twice before giving advise’ and seemed to cause upset to some people and arguments erupted. I too, agree with the message that last nights post was giving and I think it has been a long time coming to say that kind of thing on here. This site is a clear example of what society is like. Everyone wants to be right, it hurts people to think that others don’t feel the exact same way as them. And I agree that this is a forum and that means that anyone can join. But what a lot of people just can’t seem to get their head around is the message they are sending out there (to ‘vulnerable’ people). Like for instance here G1947 has felt the need to join a perfectly nice conversation about a certain person that he does not know, but whom many people seem to be fond of, and inject some of his own projected negativity into it. In doing so, he is contradicting himself in the process – has he ever considered that he has now injected doubt into the minds of some ‘vulnerable’ people on here and if anyone now offers an email address or an opportunity to talk then they might now not accept that help in the fear that they are ‘grooming’ them and have ‘predator’ intentions. So the only thing that has come of G1974’s post is something bad, not anything good whatsoever. Because he has such a negative and dark view of the world (and he is fully entitled to that) he has to project that onto others (which he is not entitled to do) just because this is a public forum does not give people the right to add more hate into this world. Some people really should think before taking action, but then that’s the world we live in, the world that they themselves hate.
Just keeps showing me how hopeless we all are as a human race.
Pink404: I’m so sorry for your friend Splinter, I hope there is some divine intervention or he rests in peace.
Yeah that guy G1974 seems to take pleasure in spreading the hate on this site as far afield as possible, I have noticed over the last few months. I do feel sorry for him and his troubles and I can see why he has such a dismal view of the world, he’s entitled to that, but I can’t respect the fact that he seems to jump onto quite a few posts here spreading his dark thoughts and negativity when that could in fact cause damage which he shows no regard for. Thankfully, not all people in the same boat as him are like minded in their actions.
Firstly, post above frankies – facts – been on here less than a week so whoever you are referring to I have no idea.
Secondly, to those who trawl on here for months on end…ask yourself why…if your here to leave a goodbye note, leave it and check out. Posting negative thoughts….what planet are you all on? It’s a suicide site, not a carebear site.
OH MY GOD I KNOW THIS GUY! This is just the weirdest day of my life!
I came on here as I’m feeling the lowest I ever felt in my life and I was researching suicide techniques (I’m not sure yet I’m just seriously thinking about it) and I found this site, started reading some of the posts and then read this one about splinter and I was thinking this guy reminds me of that guy I saw on myspace (I wont say his name as he does not mention suicide on his myspace page!!!!) I saw this myspace page about that 24 year old pregnant woman that was murdered and there was a website set up for her and then her husband began making blogs about the whole police procedure and how fucked up it all was and then the site got closed down, but another one was set up and there’s THOUSANDS of people on that site and now it’s turned into a huge deal hasn’t it? Like this guy talks about all this fucked up uninvestigated crime stuff and all the other people on there with their stories, it’s so fucked up! It keeps getting closed down but then they start it up again. I wasn’t sure if that guy was actually running it anymore coz I inboxed him loadsa times and I get some other guy responding to me now mostly about facts and figures and where you can obtain articles and stuff. There’s links to a PI firm in Peterborough and one in america and there’s some pretty big heads on that site as well! Very impressive what he’s done isn’t it?
To be honest, at first I only joined the guys site coz I thought he was pretty fit (I used to be so shallow!) (then I got depressed) and as well as being fit he had a good heart and that’s even fitter! haha! But then I learned just how serious that whole thing was and he still has pictures of him and his wife on there 🙁
So now this guy is suicidal?! I can totally understand that after what he’s been through but shit this is awful, this can’t happen! He’s only about 38 or something, he’s gorgeous and really smart and such a good soul and he’s got loads of people on his side. Do they even know what he’s gonna do? What about his actual mates? There’s always tons of posts and photos of him and his mates, do they all know what he’s about to do? (don’t worry I WILL NOT mention any of this on myspace) (he is the guy from peterborough isn’t he that was in all the papers? and in and out of court and all that malarky?) These stories are too similar to not be the same bloke and he talks just like him, it’s definitely the same bloke but he’s used the name splinter instead. He must wanna keep this suicide thing private. Oh god I feel freaked out by it.
So the reason my day is so weird is coz, for the past 2 weeks I have lied to my friends and told them I have gone off visiting my gran out of town and I turned my phone off and ignored emails etc so that I could work out if I should just die or not. I have rented a holiday flat only a few miles from my house and it’s a bit remote. i’ve been walking a lot in the countryside, watching all my fav movies and listening to music, reading etc. One day I’m convinced I’m gonna kill myself and then the next I am not so sure. But last night I ended up crying my face off like I have never done before, I mean I was howling! It actually freaked me out. I couldn’t stop. I went to bed and lay there all night until the birds started tweeting. I got up and made coffee and just sit there and thought is there ANYTHING that would make me want to live. For some reason I just went on myspace and looked at all my friends etc for some hope, and then I ended up looking at the page of the guy I think is splinter (coz I fancy him) but also coz his words just seem to give me courage or something, i don’t really know what but I enjoy reading his blogs. Well after doing that I googled the best and quickest suicide methods and ended up on here and then saw this! is that some weird sign, or some really weird coincidence? I dont know but it has freaked me out!
Splinter if you do read this and you are who I think you are, please dont kill yourself. I wont do it if you wont do it? I think you’re amazing and you’re still young (and GORGEOUS) you inspire so many people and you have so many people on your side, just look at your myspace page, read those messages!! Your cause is not hopeless, it may be slow moving but it’s not hopeless. I fully understand what you must have seen and what you must know these past few years and I understand that must literally torture your mind, especially when you can’t do something about it immediately – the world sucks and you know it, we all know it. But you have a job to do god damn it! You started it and you can’t give up now. Just by staying alive you would be saving at least one life – mine! And isn’t that what you want to do?
Pink: please try to get him to read this post, sorry to pester you xx
I agree with toosugary: Pink404,…i know that *weekend* has already passed,..but if by ANY single small miraculous chance that you *know* that Splinter is still alive, really, I wholeheartedly plead you to please in ANY way, at least relay this to Splinter (as I don’t know his email/personal contact, otherwise, I would too send this link and what toosugary said above!).
toosugary’s post reminded me again of one beautiful truth: We are all more CONNECTED with one another than we ever thought of! especially in this advanced-technologically Internet era! and we should be thankful, and at least USE it to create a CHANGE among the common, ordinary people.
Yes people, contrary to all the f*cked up hopes in humanity & mankind that I’ve just ranted in my most recent thread here http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/splinters-case-is-humanity-and-mankind-hopeless/ , I’ve somehow still have some HOPE,..that I truly utmostly believe that we don’t have to DEPEND or LOOK for the Hope, but just as obvious from how GREAT changes have occured by Splinter’s case (as mentioned by toosugary post above me), I really believe that we can go CREATE the Hope!
in fact, some of the most inspiring, and even greatest GOOD things thorought human’s history have been CREATED by those ‘weird’ and even ‘outcast’ human beings who have so many radical thoughts,…just like many of YOU guys here!
which I will tie all of these in my next new thread.
so please…stay patient and wait for it as I’m composing my thoughts right now for my next thread. It won’t be a perfect one (obviously, as I’m just a mere normal human), but the point is just to at least CONNECT the thoughts/ideas to all of you here, so you can hopefully gather, and perhaps, re-connect it again with your own ideas, and perhaps even go further and SHARE the ideas, and ACT upon them, as Splinter have taught us so well, so Splinter’s ‘teachings’ and ‘sacrificies’ wouldn’t just go in VAIN.
I somehow strongly believe that through his (Splinter’s) original post here http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/lets-face-it-were-all-evil-in-some-way/ , despite all his frustrations at this fucked-up world & mankind, I truly strongly believe that he deeply want to relay a very important MESSAGE to all, and each of us here! he want to ENTRUST the Hope, to each and all of us here, that we can CHOOSE to DO something about it, or just ‘give up easily’ on all his teachings by choosing the shortest way.
“nothing that’s truly very worth it ever accomplished easily”.
however, the feeling of peaceful and LOVE that you will feel, when you *know* you’ve done ur part, after through all the struggles through all the shits in this fucked-up world, …NOTHING will able to replace that feeling, that you’ve somehow accomplished ur “purpose”, so to speak, in this only-once LIFE, in this planet Earth.
Hi everyone, thanks for adding to this post and expressing your opinions and heartfelt emotions. I was not a close friend of Splinters, I only found him the same way you did, but I did speak with him on the phone and I am now in touch with his best friend. Splinter is dead, he killed himself last night and was found this morning, so I am unable to pass on your messages or inform him to view them, I did try my best.
Such a romantic story. Unfortunately the parallels are too close to the well-publicized murder of Laci Peterson to convince me.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murder_of_Laci_Peterson
The dates are the same. 7 months pregnant. 8 years prior to 2010. The difference is that the husband was convicted of the murder.
The whole thing seems dodgy to me.