Seems like every couple yrs I lose my job and shortly after my apartment and gf.
Am I cursed or do I not belong here and fate is telling me to make my own path? All I can think about is getting drunk and bringing my bbq inside and let nature take its course.. I have nobody to talk to.. nobody in my life will talk to me about my thoughts of suicide… they just get mad. I’m 30 and I haven’t found a way to be happy in all these yrs.. I had the perfect life and it still wasn’t good enough I’m about to loose my apartment and have nowhere to go.
I will not let myself become homeless..I just don’t know what to do.
I’m on antideppressents and their not helping. I’ve doubled my dose without my doctors consent and still all I think about is co posioning. I try not to talk about it. When I did it just pissed people offf like I was saying it to be an attention whore.. well I’m very serious about it and there is a 24 hr store nearby that sells what I need to be rid of this bullshit..I just want to be happy but it seems like I just bring everyone down..I’m lost…. don’t know how much more I can take.
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Fate isn’t always direct in what it wants you to do. your path seems to to be one hell of a winding road with a bunch of forks every couple of miles. I’m only a teenager but i can still tell you you are never alone and please don’t give up. you can take however much is neccessary and you’ll notice things will hopefully turn around. as for people getting mad when you talk about your thoughts i can relate. in my case they got mad because they were also mad at themselves and with all the emotions that pass through them anger is the easiest one to let out. i wish you the best and hope at least one thing goes right!
It sounds like you’re at the end of your rope. I dont know what to tell you. I wish I were there with you so we could talk in person. It’s a rather unpleasant thing, this journey we call life.
GOD wants to see how much u can take before u break
Ya I’ve said that to myself before..
How much shit can soemone take??
It does help talking to people that are going through similar b.s!