Hope for me, don’t give up

Guys,

Checking back in to say – to my utter astonishment – that meds have turned my depression around. For the first time in years, I feel “normal” – or at least what was normal for me when I was 30. A decade of trying assorted meds with minimal effect had sapped me of hope that my depression could actually be medicated.

It’s my birthday today, usually a time of depression and self loathing. Except this year it’s fun and heart warming and  happy.

I was told by many people that “it’s a matter of finding the right meds” but I was never sure that a pill could do anything other than make you high or sleepy. When i finally did find a drug that absolutely worked, transformed my mood without impairing me, I was dumbstruck. Like waking from a bad dream. I don’t have to work at staying awake and being productive; I just want to. 8 hours sleep is plenty; I had been sleeping 12 and needing even more.

So, not to crow, but to advise — do consider meds if you are not on them. Push your doctor, overstate your case, make him TRY NEW DRUGS instead of shoving the same old scrips. Because you might be as lucky as I – a minimal dose might change your life.

Thanks for all the support the past two years. I won’t count my chickens yet, but right now, my chickens are looking pretty happy.