I feel like I ruin every relationship I have because of my deppression.
How am I ever gonna be with someone I can’t relate to..
I hhave a great job.. I’m very handsome.. I have much to be happy about
But I’m not.. never have been.. I drag down everybody.. I’m negative about
Almost everything unless it involves food, sex, or drugs..
I think I’m ready to give up.. cleanout my bank account.
Have a great time. Live a few days like they will be my last cause they will..
Maybe I want to be around soemone who feels like I do.
To cuddle and cry in each others arms.maybe I need a girl covered in scars to
Belive she feels the pain I do. I’m only 30 and I feel 60.. and can pass for 25..
It doesn’t make sence. Fml.. I donr know how much morre pain I can take.
I feel so alone.. π
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Broken girls aren’t fun, i would know. :/ i have 24 different types of self harm scars…. I can feel the pain alright.
Hit the gym. For one. Two get a car 3 All relationship’s end. Ok not all all. move on find one.
Well I have no luck with the girls I was with..
My deppression always drove them away..
I thought maybe it would never work unless I was with someone who feels as I do..
I donr know I’m just confused and thinking out loud.
It’s okay π everyone pretty much thinks out loud on this website.
First of all.. I hit the gym all the time.. I’m in great shape..
I take out my anger on my body in. More ways then one.
Second I have a car.. I drive like a fucking nut cause I don’t really care if I get in an accident and die
And last.. I’m trying to move on.. I’m not sittting around crying over the one who got away.
I’m watching myself get fade away and I’m trying to figure out what might work to move on and be happy.. isn’t that what this site is about.. sharing and trying to find a way to live another day..
To last another minute.. andother week..
Ok hit it.
Hit what??
Yes, that’s exactly the point of this website… Just some people are way past that point. :/
The gas.
Ok.. as long as your crossing the street in front of me!!!
You care.?
you say u have a car, a great job, handsome and in great shape too…..wow most people would really want to be in your shoes now , of course minus the depression.
If you loose the depression bit, you have almost everything….
Work out why you are depressed. have u tried therapy, well it worked for my friend. talking helps , talk to someone. if you dont have anyone, well there always this site…and i am a good listener.
Past what point??? I’ve had 18 stitches in my wrist.. and I’ve only cut twice..
I od.d 3 times.. I just won’t fucking die. I even brought a toaster in the bathtub..
All I did was blow the breaker and fuck up my toaster.. lol..
I now have a sure fire painless way after much research.. but I will not post it one here..
Jar… Ha ha. That was brilliant π
Everyone says the same thing. You should be happy..
You have all you need.. people don’t get it..
I’m not shallow and materialistic..
It takes different things for different people I guess.
it seems like happy people piiss me off..
I guess I’m just jealous.I caught two people swimming in my pool
The other night.. they seemed really happy til I started throwing beer bottles at them
As they ran away.. see it doesn’t take much…
It doesn’t take much…. :/
I’m not sayin shit. 20’s can suck.
Yup you are so correct-money, looks may not bring happiness to all.
so what makes you happy….u can answer that the best. dont tell me u were never happy.
Some moment, some event in your life (not related to food, sex, anything materialistic ) that made you smile and u felt happiness.
lets start with me…..i felt the most happiest when i took my lil nephew in my arms for the first time. its a moment i can never ever forget
We all mature in different ways and stages in our lives..
Deppession can hit any age.. I’ve seen people as young as 13 on here..
Bitching about school.. and their parents. Wtf.. they are the ones who have nothing to be deppressed about
I’m 30 nnow and I’ve started over like four times since I was 18.. lost everything to exes..
Had things stolen from untrustworthy people..been fired from jobs for freaking out on people there
Oh well such as life.
Burn
I don’t remember too many things that truly made me smile.
I love music.. I play guitar and love going to concerts..
Those things make me happy..but its like always in the back of my mind.
I worry about shit I shouldn’t worry about.. I have nightmares.. I wake up with a sore jaw everyday from grinding my teeth in my sleep..I’m at a loss .. I pretty much gave up all drugs besides the odd
Toke here n there.. even food doesn’t make me happy anymore…
Cheese buger. Work’s for me
jobs well you can always find another when you loose one……well if you lost everything to your exes and untrustwothy people looted you….all i can say is you are going out with the wrong crowd.
You are at no fault here……its them….they have a problem of cheating, not you…
30 is young…u still have plently of time in your hands to gear up again….
I’m more a baconator kinda guy..
Can’t go wrong with five pieces of bacon on a giant cheeseburger..lol:)
Word.
Yes you are right..
I just started a new job on Monday..
I was at my last job for over 2 yrs.
I dated management there and
Got fired after we brokeup.. go figure eh.!!!
I’ve been through a lot of shit…
I just don’t know how. Much more I can take.
I sleep like shit every night for the last month worried
About loosing my place and bills that gathered since I lost my job..
I am workin now but its hard to catch up..
I’m working 10 hr days and sleeping 3 hrs if) a night
WOW….i love music too..ya tried playing the guitar, but i really suck :D….think you worry a lot about things….
So what kind of music do you like????
music is a great stress buster…have you ever tried to give music the main priority and try….
and ummmm….i totally understand you trying to take your life (18 stiches, overdose, toaster fiasco) but try and stay away from it atleast for few days…know its gonna be hard…but u can try
work it out.
I have a huge taste in music genres..
Mostly metal…. love the double bass drums live..
Pounding in my chest.. I think its the only thing that makes me truly
Feel alive… like my heart needs that heavy bass pounding to keep it beating
I’ve been playing guitar for over 15 yrs and also drums here and there..
I’m also full of usless music history knowlege…safe to say music is my only escape
These days.
Sorry it seems most of your problems and mostly your depression hits you the most after your breakups….
Well first rule of work……U DONT DATE COLLEAGUES OR SENIORS……boy this type of relations mostly turn out to be lethal.
10 hrs…pooh thats nothing…..ask an IT person how much he has to work to satisfy a client……well on bad days ppl dont get sleep at all .LOL..
Seniors??.. haahahha..
She was 28..lol
you play. You good.? YOU GIG.
yup metal….recently went to maiden show..it was freaking awesum \m/.
Chan you suck. Don’t even have to hear you.
I mentioned collegues too….well basic rule…..dont date anuone from office..there are plently of other places man……
guess if you stay off girls for some time…u might see most of your problems vanish.
I can pllay good enough to give myself goosebumps and
To look down at this intrument. And feel as one.. like and extention of my body is a great feeling.
I just never had the time to give it all my time..to get good enough to make records in my opinion you have to spend as much time with that insrument in a day as you would spend at work..
Nice I love maiden I heard they were coming to my area soon..
Maybe that was it.. lol.
yup. so work, play your music and stay off girls…..easy rite….
…take care
Lol.. ya ya…you too π
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I'm not a normal girl -_-
Hey …..I’m a mum ….my SON who commit suicide on Saturday 30 June , my only son I absolutly adored was just like you ….. I wish I old have help him ! but I just couldn’t see the pain and hurt he was suffering , Please get professional help because if you kill yourself you will take a Big part of your mum and dad with you , I love my son of 28 and now he has killed himself he as killed a big part of me , I’m SO sad and in pain without him forever π
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