Im 23 and homeless with no friends or family or money..cant work. Ive been wanting to just die necause my existance is completely worthless. I really wish i had a normal life so i dont kill myself or have somebody do it for me but its not. Im not interested in hearing how i shouldnt or go to some kind of institution because i wont. Im asking for an angel, or miracle. Is there anyone who will sincerely help me out of the kindness of heart. All ive encountered has been selfishness and uncaring people including my own mother. I need financial, mental and emotional help help. Life has been too overwhelming and this..right here…this paragraph is my very last attempt at life.
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I see a homeless person everyday on my way back from the train. It makes me sad and I never know what to do. He just sits on the corner & stares off into space. It’s true a lot of people are judgmental, but some don’t know what to do. I guess he just feels left out of everything & can’t relate to what we know as life anymore.
Give him a dollar and watch him smile. I wish somebody would do that for me. That dollar would impact his day more than you could imagine. Dont be afraid of homeless people. Help them. I know i need someone to help me.
If your from the U.K. Go to citizen advice or salvation army or YMCA. How you get internet acsess.?
America..texas. I have free internet on my phone. Theres a salvation army here but ive been there and wont go back. Again i say im not going to any type of building. It makes my feelings worse
You need mental treatement as a first step. I don’t know how it works in the US. After that you may think about other things. Your life is hard, harder than mine, but there are people in the same condition the problem is you that might be sick. Friends is the first key I think, Socrate said that, after we need self love. It’s easyer to tell than to do this reciepe. But it’s true, when we’re alone we’re more vulnerable.
Im perfectly sane. To my experience…friends dont exist.
Im actually more logical and sane than 98% of human beings ive come in contact with
You don’t need anyones approval to end your life, if thats what you want get busy palnning the actions you wiill take to end your life. Or get busy with actions that will ensure you survive no matter what.
Im not lookin for approval jackass im lookin for help
Do you ever need food or do you have the means to get that?
NurdG, I can’t offer financial help, nor can I offer any practical or theoretical help in any plan to kill yourself. I’d think that would go for most of the people here.
You are asking for help, but in the next breath you are rebuffing people’s honest attempts to support you.
I’d suggest making it easier for them to help you would yield a better result…
I’m sorry for your pain though.
Zx
Dolores- besides rumiging dumpsters, no in fact im begging what phone numbers i do have for a pizza delivered but with my last option, that attempt failed.
Louise- i dont think making a comment to nudge somebody to suicide is help at all especially since he just assumed i was taking no actions in trying to better myself. Truth is ive tried almost everything i could do and all has failed. Hense me being so helpless
Meant hopeless**
The days almost over im starving and depressed and wet amd dirty. I just want to eat and sleep but i cant do either
NurdG, people here don’t always get it ‘right’, we are human like everyone else. If their attempts are at least sincere, is that not enough?
I do note however, that you’re aksing for mental or emotional help. What qualifies as ‘help’ is actually in the eye of the person being helped is it not?
I mean, help can come from the most unexpected sources sometimes. It can just bubble up from the depths of one’s own mind, unconscious or whatever.
I sense that you probably have quite serious ‘trust’ issues. Being successful in your search for help requires that you open yourself just a little bit to other people. Help is always at hand if only we know how and where to seek it NurdG.
It is s**t that you’re homeless with no money, friends or family and no way to get a job. But maybe you need to unpack those things a little for us to have a clearer idea of where you’re coming from?
Maybe make a slightly longer post giving some more details, or just write more in a comment here?
I wish you well Nurdg, but there’s only so much any of us here can do…
Z
NurdG, I was honestly speechless at your post.
I can’t really understand your situation completely. I do know that no one never really has a normal life. With all the different things people go through today’s day in age do we even know what normal is? I don’t think we ever will. I believe we make our own normal.
I do feel badly that all the people you have encountered in your life were selfish and uncaring. I hope you do believe deep down that not everyone is bad. As Gandhi said, “You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.” So maybe the drops have increased over the years but the ocean will never truely be black. Where there is darkness there will also be light. Where there is bad, good.
You may not agree or you may think ‘does this ***** really think quoting shit to me is going to help it isn’t what I asked for.’ And for that I’m sorry. Not all of us on here know how to heal because if we did we would heal ourselves first. Zoe or @Louise50 is right there is only so much we can do from here.
And so yeah I might not be able to help you financially. But i’ll be damned if I don’t at least try to help you emotionally and mentally. I’ll never truely know what to say exactly if I don’t know a little more of your story but I understand if you can’t tell me just yet or ever even. I do, however, understand what it feels like when everything comes crashing down and the first thing to go is the ground beneath your feet. Everything you had to keep you strong like your shelter and home disappeared. I can’t possibly understand how much this breaks you and tears away your hope.But I do understand what it feels like to be broken. So maybe two broken people can heal eachother.
I’ve never witnessed a miracle or seen someone so good they could be an angel let alone my angel. So I have no clue if I can be yours. But i’ll tell you this. If I didn’t want to help out of the goodness of my heart I wouldn’t bother reading your entire post let alone commenting would I? I respect that you don’t want anyone to tell you to join some program or go to some institution, so i won’t It’s your life, your choice. And I know those places may never truely be able to help you. I also respect that you don’t want anyone to argue your worth so I won’t do that either. But one persons trash could be another’s treasure. So maybe you are worthless to yourself but i can tell you someday you can mean the world to someone.
I really hope you are as ok as you can be in your situation. I hope you don’t give up although I understand how easy it would be for you to do so. Then again it wouldn’t be called life if we could get through easily would it? Maybe you are supposed to experience this so that someday when all these gifts are returned to you, you can treasure them with all your heart. I’m not in any way saying you deserve the situation you are in only saying that because you are in this situation you deserve a brighter future. And my God do I hope you live long and receive it.
So if you EVER need to talk or need some advice even here is my e-mail Arabiangyrl28@gmail.com I promise you I will almost always answer you instantly. If I don’t I assure you there will be a good reason. I hope you stay safe tonight and that whatever greater force there is watches over you till we talk again.
All the best wishes and prayers
I was just thinking about the experience of being homeless again. I imagine people walk around you & point their fingers all the time. Sometimes I think we should give homeless people a lot of money so they can eat and find somewhere to sleep instead of being suspicious of them. I hope you got more from this than a lot of good intentions.