I need help.
Ever since I was 12 my mom has made me feel like a horrible human being every single day. She insults me, hits me, mocks me and laughs at me when I cry, and tells me how much of a failure I am, how I’m not muscular enough to be a real man, how she wishes she had a better son. Even after multiple suicide attempts, one of which resulted in the school counselor taking me to the hospital ward to get help, my mom still doesn’t see what she’s doing. My dad realized it was wrong to hit me and insult me, and he stopped. But my mom said I was an embarrassment to her and the family for trying to commit suicide. She gets worse every day. I’ve only got nine days until I leave for college, and yet I feel like I’ll lose control sooner than that. I can’t stand up for myself, because she is my mother, but I don’t look at her as a mother. I look at her as a demon, a vicious ***** who gets pleasure from hurting her “loved” ones. I don’t want to hurt my friends, my girlfriend, and the rest of my family by committing suicide, but my mother’s torture of me is enough to make me forget about those I love. I don’t know what to do. I’m out of options. Psychiatrists and counselors don’t help me anymore. I’m alone.
I need help.
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I totally get what you mean, my parents don’t do that to me BUT i am a victim of bullying and thats what your mom is doing…bullying you. It’s tough, i think about suicide from time to time, never attempted it because my friend killed himself and i saw the effect and hurt he left on people and i just couldn’t do that. especially to my boyfriend =/ our one year is on friday and i couldnt ever hurt him like that so i totally get it. im here if u wanna talk
I just don’t understand what possesses someone to do what she does… to treat her child in the way that she does. In between the time I posted that to the time I started writing this response she came in to tell me that “sitting on your fat ass isn’t going to make me love you.” Why the fuck does she think that shit is called for? I’ve been in therapy multiple times, the psychiatric ward once, and yet she still doesn’t think something is wrong… how much of a hint does she need? It’s like the only way she will understand is if she sees her son dead.
Just hold in there till 9 days…And try your best to avoid her.Im sorry about your mom and i wish i could help more then this..I want to tell you,that you are a precouis human being no matter what she says..You have 9 days try till survive till then.when you get to college you will be able to have your own life and if you wish
Without her..Try to confront her if you must which might not even help..confront your father as well..it will get better i promise..
I see all the “it gets better” stuff, but when does that day come? Seven years and it’s still as bad as ever.
I don’t understand how some parents can be. do ur friends know about this at all? maybe u can talk to them and their parents about staying with them til u go off to college. but don’t give in, see if u can somehow get away from ur mom
I’ve tried, she won’t allow it. She doesn’t want her source of personal amusement (me) to go away, because then she can’t torture anyone else.
Well if your 18 it’s not her choice your an adult now you can tell her to go fuck herself and just walk out. I wouldn’t be able to tolerate that i would of snapped at my parents if they ever treated me that way. my brother used to beat me after my parents split but him and i grew up. it’s tough i’d know, but you ARE strong and you have your girlfriend and friends to help you through it
Sounds like the woman has massive problems. It sucks when people have kids, then treat them like shit.
I know it’s difficult, but the one way for you to feel better is to get away from there.
I wouldn’t call her a mom. Stop letting such a woman upset you, just yell how a failure SHE is, how she sucks at being a mom. Next time she says “it won’t make me love you”, tell her you don’t need her love.
You really don’t. If you’ve come of age, don’t be around her, either.
Well I don’t know if talking to her like this makes it better, but I see it’s already crap when you take it.